JUST ADD WATER, I'M DISAPPOINTED
hello everybody
i had an interesting night. a very interesting night. ok. so around midnight, my friends call me and tell me to come over to drink. and i wasn't going to. but since i had written 10 pages of my 25 page play, i figured i would go over. and it was a mess. my friend greg went with me and we stumbled upon a messy fucking party. i mean, most everbody was tanked and just not making sense. so, i had a few beers, but my buzz just disolved into taking care of the drunk kids. i mean, i know, i should say anything. but i will say this: none of them ever did what i did for them tonight. they were fucked up. and let's get down to it: there is this slightly crazy girl named sarah, and she is really good looking. and she broke up with her boyfriend a couple of days ago. and greg told me she would make out with me. but when i got there she was too drunk to even sit up. so i just kind of felt bad. and that was a bummer. and i don't mean anything should happen between us, because, like i said, she is a bit off. but she is really funny. and hot. and i just mean, i would like to see if anything could happen. you know. i'm not talking like anything serious. but a little something? maybe? i don't know. i told her i would go see her tomorrow. and she said she would like to drink tomorrow night. and i would too. and i would like to see if anything happens. ok. i'm going to level with both of you, (i know who reads this thing, i know both of you, i am not deluded into thinking anybody else does.) i know i shouldn't get into anything with her. i am pretty sure she has a bad relationship with her dad. and there is stuff there that i don't need to get into. but, shit damn, i need some physical attention. i know, i know, that makes me sound like a "Guy" but i do. i really do. i need to feel another person's warmth, another person's touch. i do. i won't deny that. i won't. but it makes me feel bad to even think about doing anything with her. i know. i know. neither of you have to lecture me about getting anything going on with a girl who has problems. so, don't lecture me. i just think i might be lonely enough to let it happen. not make it happen. but let it happen. you know? please don't think i am a bad person for this. please? i just.... i just need some touch. i know what that makes me sound like. i know. and i know it's bad. but if she is willing, and i am lonely..... well why not? she will be the second hottest girl i ever made out with... number one knowes who she is.... hehehe. but seriously. i am a lost cause. i know it's bad. i don't mean it to be. but there was something going on earlier this year with us. and now, i have a feeling it's about to manifest itself again. you know? and.... fuck. i just want to act on it. and she likes some good music. not all good music, she is into some shit, but she like Le Tigre. and that is hot. ok. whatever. i should go. i just spent the night taking care of this girl, and my friend kevin. they were both VERY sick. and, the whole time i kept thinking, she might be not half bad. she could potentially be dateable. i mean, she does have some baggage but we all do. you know? but she has some history with greg. they made out a few times earlier this year. and i think he still digs her. but he needs to know she is not into him. but i don't know. this has gone on for a while now. long post. i thank you both for reading. cuz.... i know who you are. and i will leave you with this:
"If being afraid is a crime, we hang side by side, at the swinging party.... down the line."
i had an interesting night. a very interesting night. ok. so around midnight, my friends call me and tell me to come over to drink. and i wasn't going to. but since i had written 10 pages of my 25 page play, i figured i would go over. and it was a mess. my friend greg went with me and we stumbled upon a messy fucking party. i mean, most everbody was tanked and just not making sense. so, i had a few beers, but my buzz just disolved into taking care of the drunk kids. i mean, i know, i should say anything. but i will say this: none of them ever did what i did for them tonight. they were fucked up. and let's get down to it: there is this slightly crazy girl named sarah, and she is really good looking. and she broke up with her boyfriend a couple of days ago. and greg told me she would make out with me. but when i got there she was too drunk to even sit up. so i just kind of felt bad. and that was a bummer. and i don't mean anything should happen between us, because, like i said, she is a bit off. but she is really funny. and hot. and i just mean, i would like to see if anything could happen. you know. i'm not talking like anything serious. but a little something? maybe? i don't know. i told her i would go see her tomorrow. and she said she would like to drink tomorrow night. and i would too. and i would like to see if anything happens. ok. i'm going to level with both of you, (i know who reads this thing, i know both of you, i am not deluded into thinking anybody else does.) i know i shouldn't get into anything with her. i am pretty sure she has a bad relationship with her dad. and there is stuff there that i don't need to get into. but, shit damn, i need some physical attention. i know, i know, that makes me sound like a "Guy" but i do. i really do. i need to feel another person's warmth, another person's touch. i do. i won't deny that. i won't. but it makes me feel bad to even think about doing anything with her. i know. i know. neither of you have to lecture me about getting anything going on with a girl who has problems. so, don't lecture me. i just think i might be lonely enough to let it happen. not make it happen. but let it happen. you know? please don't think i am a bad person for this. please? i just.... i just need some touch. i know what that makes me sound like. i know. and i know it's bad. but if she is willing, and i am lonely..... well why not? she will be the second hottest girl i ever made out with... number one knowes who she is.... hehehe. but seriously. i am a lost cause. i know it's bad. i don't mean it to be. but there was something going on earlier this year with us. and now, i have a feeling it's about to manifest itself again. you know? and.... fuck. i just want to act on it. and she likes some good music. not all good music, she is into some shit, but she like Le Tigre. and that is hot. ok. whatever. i should go. i just spent the night taking care of this girl, and my friend kevin. they were both VERY sick. and, the whole time i kept thinking, she might be not half bad. she could potentially be dateable. i mean, she does have some baggage but we all do. you know? but she has some history with greg. they made out a few times earlier this year. and i think he still digs her. but he needs to know she is not into him. but i don't know. this has gone on for a while now. long post. i thank you both for reading. cuz.... i know who you are. and i will leave you with this:
"If being afraid is a crime, we hang side by side, at the swinging party.... down the line."