AHH
hahah god damn its been a while. being completely and utterly bored on a tuesday night at 3:41 am will get you to some reminiscing. my life is some pile of shit right now.. and thats putting it nicely..
i miss umd sooo much.. it sucks. i didnt think i would be this sad to leave everyone, but i am.. especially my boys.. haha all 3 of them. actually i hate most of them.
i miss dave. and it suckssssssss so much because who knows how he feels. thats the biggest problem.. i dont know how he feels and im afraid to ask because he is so blunt that what he says might not be what i want to hear. hopefully i will get to see him this weekend because just being around him is what makes me happy. i hate how he has power over me.. i promised myself i wouldnt let him get to me. oh what a 330am booty call the night before i go home to jersey does to me.. haha
neil is an asshole. i saw him this weekend when i happened to secretly visit maryland and he was acting like a dick like usual. he ignored me except before he left byron's and was like "oh i'll call ya later. let me know when youre in md for longer so we can chill for long." HELL NO. mother fucker has a girlfriend. except that didnt stop him from cheating on her and not telling me he had any girl to be cheating on. but oh its ok because they arent doing well right now. thats bullshit. hes small anyway.
and CHRIS. talk about small.. the boy is the total opposite. holllyyy shit. go italians. well after 2 months of him talking about it, it finally happened. should i be relieved that it happened and he can stop whining or should i feel kinda whorish. i need to purchase this little thing i like to call SELF CONTROL. god damn.
i miss craig. it was so easy. he came over, we chilled, he left. repeat. i knew thats what it was and though i complained, it was convienent. oh how i love that word.
my life is so nutty. help me. i need to make sense of all this. i need to learn the meaning of the word COMMITMENT. its a good thing.
i miss umd sooo much.. it sucks. i didnt think i would be this sad to leave everyone, but i am.. especially my boys.. haha all 3 of them. actually i hate most of them.
i miss dave. and it suckssssssss so much because who knows how he feels. thats the biggest problem.. i dont know how he feels and im afraid to ask because he is so blunt that what he says might not be what i want to hear. hopefully i will get to see him this weekend because just being around him is what makes me happy. i hate how he has power over me.. i promised myself i wouldnt let him get to me. oh what a 330am booty call the night before i go home to jersey does to me.. haha
neil is an asshole. i saw him this weekend when i happened to secretly visit maryland and he was acting like a dick like usual. he ignored me except before he left byron's and was like "oh i'll call ya later. let me know when youre in md for longer so we can chill for long." HELL NO. mother fucker has a girlfriend. except that didnt stop him from cheating on her and not telling me he had any girl to be cheating on. but oh its ok because they arent doing well right now. thats bullshit. hes small anyway.
and CHRIS. talk about small.. the boy is the total opposite. holllyyy shit. go italians. well after 2 months of him talking about it, it finally happened. should i be relieved that it happened and he can stop whining or should i feel kinda whorish. i need to purchase this little thing i like to call SELF CONTROL. god damn.
i miss craig. it was so easy. he came over, we chilled, he left. repeat. i knew thats what it was and though i complained, it was convienent. oh how i love that word.
my life is so nutty. help me. i need to make sense of all this. i need to learn the meaning of the word COMMITMENT. its a good thing.