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update time!!!
so i havent really updated in a long ass time or looked at my flist so i apoligize. and no i didnt really die. i'm fine and ok and all that good stuff. but if there's something that you want me to read leave a link here and i will blahblah.
anyways.. where to start.
me and hotel matt are like.. yeah idk. fwb now. and its a bad situation bc he has a gf but they're on a break or sumshit like that. all i kno is that i like spending time with him and he makes me happy. so i'm like ahhh lets have some fun. but he's been uber sick lately and i think i got him sick. bc we fooled around when i wasnt really 100% better from the other week. hell i'm still coughing. and it kinda feels like the beginning of bronchitus. so i'm like shiiiiiiiiiit. or it could be just smokers cough, but hahaha, unlikely.
went to fascinations a week or so ago. ha was fun. i got this, like, cinnimon flavored lube and OMG it tastes like christmas. i could drink it. and i applied there about a month ago and i got a call back. but it sucked bc it was at 32nd st and bell. i'm like wtf m8. thats too far! >:(
but yeah. ever since stupid matt fucked me over guys are like omg i've always liked you blahblah. some guy deployed in afghanistan even asked me to be his gf.. and i've never met him. i turned him down bc.. well.. he's far away and i can worry myself into craziness. so i told him that we'd just be friends for now and see what happens when he gets back. but i'm just like ahh whats going on!? why the suddeness of liking me? grr. its kinda cool but really aggravating at the same time. i want closeness with someone. :-\
work has been going really good lately. they have me training people at the registers bc i'm really good at getting credit so i'm like w00 go me. but some of the people that i train are annoying as hell and i'm like omfg stfu. like this one girl.. i was training her on the floor and she had anxiety and was worried that if we didnt get the department cleaned up that she'd get fired. and she was saying how she was depressed and on meds and the whole time i was thinking "omg she's gonna end up killing me". and i get this really creepy vibe from her. like... dykeish vibe. and it makes me cringe bc she's nasty. but yeah. there's some awesome people that i do work with. mostly the guys bc i get a long with them better, heh. but there's alex, he works in shoes and he reminds me of rob in a way. but he's just funny and silly and we goof around a lot. then there's stephen, and he works in shoes too. and he just gives me a hard time, all the time. constant teasing pretty much. and mike reminds me of jim carrey. looks and personality wise. hahaha he's great. then there's adrian, the whore of the store bc he's always doing different things everyday. and he's a flirt like no other. but he's fun and we poke fun at eachother constantly. but since i started working i'm more assertive and not as shy and.. i know how to talk to people now. kinda hard to explain.. but i've always had trouble explaining what i'm trying to say in person. so i wasnt really coherent and i knew that. but now i am. and i'm more confident and all that fun stuff. but that could also be matt helping with that. he's not letting me get away with shyness and making me go after what i want.
but i had to work yesterday and that was hellish. i had to be there at 630am. which isnt SO bad bc some people had to be there at 3 and 445 to open at 5. and JESUS it was packed by the time i got there. i was so lucky that i found a parking space. the line to the checkout circled around the whole store and i was just like :o. but my 8 hours went by pretty quickly. so that was good, plus free lunch from the farmers market next door. mmmm roast beef.
thanksgiving was pretty... interesting i guess. family came over and that was fun :-|. i dont really like them so i was watching american pie in my room and just ignoring them. then they'd come and hang out in my room... yeah. fun shit. was just a pretty blah day. then later laura came over and we drank half a bottle of wine infront of my mom and she didnt really care. which kinda shocked me but whatev.
been hanging out with laura a lot still. bc.. hahaha, i always have a blast. even if we're just watching tv, we can make jokes and laugh for hours. so funny. but yeah our current thing is to drink appletinis and watch csi then go smoke. and lots of silliness and messing with peoples heads on the phone. but her family is so awesome and they welcome me with open arms and i'm like her sister now. lol its great. but yeah. now i'm rarely home bc i stay at her house all the time. i even have my own room! i love it.
my parents are saying that i'm only getting one thing for christmas. and thats a car. so i'm like W00T! so expect to see me more often for all those people out in china. random visits here i come.
and me and laura are buying eachother piercings for christmas and we may get a little sperm tattooed on the inside of our lip bc we think its hilarious. BUT i cant decide between a lip piercing or a tounge piercing. so input would be nice.
uuuuuhhhhhh.... last night i went to glendale glitters at downtown glendale with laura and her family. its just basically chrismas lights, music, food, and little stands selling things. it was pretty fun, and i may go back again tonight. idk yet. but they had this stand that sold strawberries and chocolate dip. OMFG orgasmic. so yummy.
but i was in downtown glendale last week with laura just looking at the shops and i guess everett saw me down there and was gonna say hi but i walked away before he could. whew i was pissed. i was like NOOO!!! when he told me. that makes me mad bc lol i have yet to talk to him in person. we just text and yeah. GRR. he's so gorgeous. hahaha. i still really like him. but fuckerhead has a gf now. ohwell. at least we're talking. :)
uhm. i'm thinking about switching to tmobile at the beginning of the year. bc i really like them. and my bill will just be about $20 more. so thats not too shabby. especially for being able to do 2837402937409273x more than what i can do now with my phone. so yeah. expect a possible # change.
i still want my wings. but i found the style that i wanted. finally. i was debating between realistic, or tribal, or tribal with realistic feathers in the outline.. but now i've decided that i want it to be like scratch abstract. more like a sketchy drawing. now i just need to find someone thats able to tattoo in that style. and that may be tricky. :-\
ok thats it for now. i've talked enough.
cio bella.
so i havent really updated in a long ass time or looked at my flist so i apoligize. and no i didnt really die. i'm fine and ok and all that good stuff. but if there's something that you want me to read leave a link here and i will blahblah.
anyways.. where to start.
me and hotel matt are like.. yeah idk. fwb now. and its a bad situation bc he has a gf but they're on a break or sumshit like that. all i kno is that i like spending time with him and he makes me happy. so i'm like ahhh lets have some fun. but he's been uber sick lately and i think i got him sick. bc we fooled around when i wasnt really 100% better from the other week. hell i'm still coughing. and it kinda feels like the beginning of bronchitus. so i'm like shiiiiiiiiiit. or it could be just smokers cough, but hahaha, unlikely.
went to fascinations a week or so ago. ha was fun. i got this, like, cinnimon flavored lube and OMG it tastes like christmas. i could drink it. and i applied there about a month ago and i got a call back. but it sucked bc it was at 32nd st and bell. i'm like wtf m8. thats too far! >:(
but yeah. ever since stupid matt fucked me over guys are like omg i've always liked you blahblah. some guy deployed in afghanistan even asked me to be his gf.. and i've never met him. i turned him down bc.. well.. he's far away and i can worry myself into craziness. so i told him that we'd just be friends for now and see what happens when he gets back. but i'm just like ahh whats going on!? why the suddeness of liking me? grr. its kinda cool but really aggravating at the same time. i want closeness with someone. :-\
work has been going really good lately. they have me training people at the registers bc i'm really good at getting credit so i'm like w00 go me. but some of the people that i train are annoying as hell and i'm like omfg stfu. like this one girl.. i was training her on the floor and she had anxiety and was worried that if we didnt get the department cleaned up that she'd get fired. and she was saying how she was depressed and on meds and the whole time i was thinking "omg she's gonna end up killing me". and i get this really creepy vibe from her. like... dykeish vibe. and it makes me cringe bc she's nasty. but yeah. there's some awesome people that i do work with. mostly the guys bc i get a long with them better, heh. but there's alex, he works in shoes and he reminds me of rob in a way. but he's just funny and silly and we goof around a lot. then there's stephen, and he works in shoes too. and he just gives me a hard time, all the time. constant teasing pretty much. and mike reminds me of jim carrey. looks and personality wise. hahaha he's great. then there's adrian, the whore of the store bc he's always doing different things everyday. and he's a flirt like no other. but he's fun and we poke fun at eachother constantly. but since i started working i'm more assertive and not as shy and.. i know how to talk to people now. kinda hard to explain.. but i've always had trouble explaining what i'm trying to say in person. so i wasnt really coherent and i knew that. but now i am. and i'm more confident and all that fun stuff. but that could also be matt helping with that. he's not letting me get away with shyness and making me go after what i want.
but i had to work yesterday and that was hellish. i had to be there at 630am. which isnt SO bad bc some people had to be there at 3 and 445 to open at 5. and JESUS it was packed by the time i got there. i was so lucky that i found a parking space. the line to the checkout circled around the whole store and i was just like :o. but my 8 hours went by pretty quickly. so that was good, plus free lunch from the farmers market next door. mmmm roast beef.
thanksgiving was pretty... interesting i guess. family came over and that was fun :-|. i dont really like them so i was watching american pie in my room and just ignoring them. then they'd come and hang out in my room... yeah. fun shit. was just a pretty blah day. then later laura came over and we drank half a bottle of wine infront of my mom and she didnt really care. which kinda shocked me but whatev.
been hanging out with laura a lot still. bc.. hahaha, i always have a blast. even if we're just watching tv, we can make jokes and laugh for hours. so funny. but yeah our current thing is to drink appletinis and watch csi then go smoke. and lots of silliness and messing with peoples heads on the phone. but her family is so awesome and they welcome me with open arms and i'm like her sister now. lol its great. but yeah. now i'm rarely home bc i stay at her house all the time. i even have my own room! i love it.
my parents are saying that i'm only getting one thing for christmas. and thats a car. so i'm like W00T! so expect to see me more often for all those people out in china. random visits here i come.
and me and laura are buying eachother piercings for christmas and we may get a little sperm tattooed on the inside of our lip bc we think its hilarious. BUT i cant decide between a lip piercing or a tounge piercing. so input would be nice.
uuuuuhhhhhh.... last night i went to glendale glitters at downtown glendale with laura and her family. its just basically chrismas lights, music, food, and little stands selling things. it was pretty fun, and i may go back again tonight. idk yet. but they had this stand that sold strawberries and chocolate dip. OMFG orgasmic. so yummy.
but i was in downtown glendale last week with laura just looking at the shops and i guess everett saw me down there and was gonna say hi but i walked away before he could. whew i was pissed. i was like NOOO!!! when he told me. that makes me mad bc lol i have yet to talk to him in person. we just text and yeah. GRR. he's so gorgeous. hahaha. i still really like him. but fuckerhead has a gf now. ohwell. at least we're talking. :)
uhm. i'm thinking about switching to tmobile at the beginning of the year. bc i really like them. and my bill will just be about $20 more. so thats not too shabby. especially for being able to do 2837402937409273x more than what i can do now with my phone. so yeah. expect a possible # change.
i still want my wings. but i found the style that i wanted. finally. i was debating between realistic, or tribal, or tribal with realistic feathers in the outline.. but now i've decided that i want it to be like scratch abstract. more like a sketchy drawing. now i just need to find someone thats able to tattoo in that style. and that may be tricky. :-\
ok thats it for now. i've talked enough.
cio bella.