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im really tired. but i thought id update anyway. i just got off the phone with ben. and he just left before that. we're together like everyday, all day. and i love it. i could never get sick of him. i have so much fun with him. and i care about him a lot. i sound retarded. but i could care less. its just how i feel!its spring break.ill probably do a whole lot of nothing. so far all ive done is....hang out with ben. and tonight me him and lauren saw the ring 2. it sucked. saturday was the strung up show. i was like practicly half there. at bens all ready for the show. when i ended up going home cuz i had to be home at 11 and no one would drive me home.i was sad. i was like really emotional that night i dont know why.i went home at like 8 and layed in my room in the dark crying. and i was like, im seriously not crying over not going to the show. but i dont think i was.i guess i just needed a good cry.i wanted to be with ben. and he was sad i couldnt go.i dont know why i was that upset tho. i felt like i had just been dumped.but i got over it.i missed all the shows last week cuz they were on school nights. i cant wait until i can do whatever i want and come home as late as i want. or at least when i can drive myself to shows so i dont have to rely on someone to take me home on time.bens getting surgery tomorrow morning and i want to be there with him after even tho he wont be up for it. but ill just lay with him.its not MASSIVE surgery so its nothing to worry about but im still sad hes scared. ok all im talking about is ben. sorry.ANYWAY.i got freaking excellent grades on my report card.probbaly cuz ive been happy lately.ive been freaking sick the past 2 weeks. this cough wont go away. and on top of it i got every other cold symptom. i need to go to bed. im done talking.