i just realized how much i don't hate you
sometimes i miss my old life so much that it kills me to keep the one i have.
if only i had known then what i know now...i could have let you go and it all would have been better.
fate is a funny person with a cold heart.
for so long i hated you.
was hurt by you.
now i realize what i did to you and i'm just so sorry.
so sorry that you'll never believe i've changed.
i have though.
i just want peace.
and to be happy.
and for once..i really want you to be happy too.
i love school. and the derusha's. and my new life. i miss my brother so much. but otherwise...i often feel ready to let go of everything and everyone i left behind. there are some people who will always be in my mind and in my heart...but some of you just no longer belong there.