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Why is life retarded all the time. Just when I think maybe I could be happi for a little bit, things crashed down even harder. I had a pretty good time on Sat. at the moovies, but it got interrupted alot by phone calls. :( Besides that it was a pretty good time. At least for me i thought it was. I like this guy but I guess nothing is going to happen and everything means nothing now. Friends are even mad at me...and i dont see why they are so upset. Did i really do something terrible? I havnet lied to them, id never do that. But the way they are acting makes me feel like a horrible person who has done everyting terribly wrong. They pretend to forgive me but they really dont. I feel horrible and never meant to hurt any of them, but now im the one hurt. These friends of mine seem to want a law that i cant like this guy or talk to him. Other friends of mine are telling me some are saying "he doesnt like her, why is she always around him and calling him". I dont remember ever saying he did like me or that i always am callin him or being around him. If only kids could keep things to themself and not worry about others or things that dont concern them. Life would be easier for us all. Drama- why cant it all be stopped. It never helps anyone it only hurts everyone. Then no one ever has the same story, so you always up end losing friends or just makin enemys. About the phone calls the other nite, it was all about some really lame rumor. Its not true, and yet people seem to believe it cause they enjoy drama, or at least when its not about them. If anyone knew all the facts, you could see its made up. But because of whoever made it up, ppl are getting mad at each other and its breaking friendships. I feel really bad for this guy, he didnt do anything to deserve all this fucking drama. Then I feel like im just causing more for him. :( I like him, but if he doesnt feel the same about me or want a relationship maybe i should just leave him alone and just deal with it. Im really cornfused about what to think, feel, or do right now. Im just such an idiot. Things are getting to be really fucked up...