The exception to every rule.....
From: Alena
Date: Oct 19 2005 12:01pm
I know that you didn't tell her the whole truth. But that's your cross to bear. She's great. I really liked talking to her and by the way, she is on my friends list now! Good luck in life james and never try to talk to me again.......
Alena
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From: james
Date: Oct 19, 2005 10:40 AM
i don't know what to say after what happened. I wish I knew what I was doing, that I did everything right and good, but like always I failed. I felt so amazing just being around you again, I guess a feeling I don't deserve. You are just this terrific person that, no matter how hard I try, I always screw up and not get to have you in my life. I'm not expecting a response. I just hope you get to read this. I'm sorry I wrote you, I'm sorry I had to talk to. That will probably be a feeling I will have in the future but I won't act upon it for your sake. "no thinking" bad idea. I don't see what you can possibly see in me, or did see in me. I admit I'm guilty in being a fucker, a kind of person I would not want you to hang around with. The only difference is the fact that my intentions were true and good, my actions, not so much. I am so sorry, it hurts so bad to think what I must have done to you. I hope you don't think I am just saying that. I am really sorry, I will end by saying goodbye, goodluck in life, you are an amazing terrific girl, one of the most amazing I have ever met, You should not think of yourself as being stupid for thinking what you thought, I am the idiot who did things all wrong. Just keep up being great. and Good bye
Love James
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From: James
Date: Oct. 18 2005 1:39pm
we broke up that night I saw you, she left but will not give up, we are pulling off the friend thing pretty well, for it just happening. I think she just can't let go though. Its weird, i hope we didnt just have a time to be close and then go on like it didn't happen like back in June. But I know how out of the blue this all is. you said you would call me today. You haven't yet. the only thing I do today is have rehearsal at 630 until around 930. so you can come over before then or after, just give me a call. sorry I missed you last night, just barely though, and which of my room mates let some random girl into my room?
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From: Strike Two: You don't play the guitar
Date: Oct 18, 2005 12:58 PM
Are you and Blair still together? I think we should talk in person again....
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From: James
Date: October 17, 2005 1:24pm
dont worry, I found it and put it in my drawer in a safe place. It is well protected, why is it so important anyway? no need to answer that. I found your sun glasses to. Those are also safe. I think you left them on purpose, to give you an excuse to see me again. just kidding, anyways. Give me a call tonight, and I don't have anything to do tomorrow except reheasal at 630.
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From: Strike Two: You don't play the guitar
Date: Oct 17, 2005 2:48 AM
I left my necklace at your place and I REALLY REALLY REALLY need that back! I almost had a heart attack when I realized it was gone!
Alena
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From: James
Date: October 15, 2005 4:39
astrological sign? that was a ball, fourth and walk. tomorrow, I don't know. No idea. I'd offer to by you a coffee but you don't like coffee and I have no money.
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From: Strike Three: You don't play the guitare
Date: Oct 15, 2005 3:41 PM
Actually my dear, Strike two was the "astrological sign" What are we going to do about tomorrow???
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From: james
Date: Oct 15, 2005 3:02 PM
hello, what is happening now? this feels so sureal. Do we know what we are doing? well I do, Do you? I think that you will decide to not see me on sunday. I think we should see how that goes. I think, I think, and I think. I have a great deal of hope you will see me tomorrow. I saw it in your eyes last night. secondly, that is only two strikes you skipped strike two. which leaves the batter at the plate waiting for the next pitch. An no curves.
WE MET LATER THAT NIGHT!!!!
Fine. I see your point it might be bad, but what if? what if? it will be fine, that we can do this, I know it hasn't been long, but I miss you, you saw me at inchahoots(cant spell well,)I didnt know thatt. call me right now, please if you forgot 496-0566. please. it wont hurt, i promise
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From: *Because poetry isn't everything*
Date: Oct 15, 2005 12:10 AM
Copy and Paste in your browser...................
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=4075701&Mytoken=131107F6-C05B-7647-E26294A77888363923292756
I wish there was something I could say. Maybe just thank you. For "sucking up" your pride enough to realize what happened. It wasn't all your fault either though. I realized a while ago the mistakes I made and wanted for a while to rectify them, but I couldn't. To be honest I can pin point the bad things I did and the mistakes I made. I can pinpoint the mistakes you made, but somehow in my head, those mistakes just don't seem like enough to have broken us up. Which means (at least to me) that there was something else that I wasn't seeing. I am not sure what I want to do about the blocking you thing, because when we get along, it's fine. But when we don't, I get bad things from you and that's just not nice or fun. I also don't know what to do on the whole seeing you again thing. See, I saw you once at Incahoots and had a semi-nervous breakdown and that was again, not nice or fun. So I don't know. We've gone already 6 months and only seeing each other 2 or 3 times. Is it really all that important that we see each other again? No good can come of it.... I know what it's like to have that feeling... I can't drive by that little turn out on the RIM between the dump and running springs with out thinking of you. I can't go to the BLOCK in Costa Mesa with out thinking of you again. I know that feeling. And I'm sorry that you are feeling that now........
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From: james
Date: Oct 14, 2005 9:36 PM
Because I really miss you. I hope you don't take this the wrong way, cause you would probably hate that, Its just you have been on my mind and it has been driving me crazy to not be able to talk to you. I really want to. To see you, and everything. please don't just block me again. please at least let me talk to you on the phone. I cant stand the fact I can't watch a certain movie because it was one I saw on your bed or that we saw together. Everything just makes me think of you, but not being able to talk with you or anything is horrible. If you don't want to reply just know I don't blame you for anything, I finnally sucked up my stupid pride and realized what I have done. So I know everything that happened was my fault, I know the mistake I made , But I don't want to make the mistake in not having you in my life at all. I want at least to see you again. before you go to Europe. so please respond. or at least believe me. Im sorry,
Date: Oct 19 2005 12:01pm
I know that you didn't tell her the whole truth. But that's your cross to bear. She's great. I really liked talking to her and by the way, she is on my friends list now! Good luck in life james and never try to talk to me again.......
Alena
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: james
Date: Oct 19, 2005 10:40 AM
i don't know what to say after what happened. I wish I knew what I was doing, that I did everything right and good, but like always I failed. I felt so amazing just being around you again, I guess a feeling I don't deserve. You are just this terrific person that, no matter how hard I try, I always screw up and not get to have you in my life. I'm not expecting a response. I just hope you get to read this. I'm sorry I wrote you, I'm sorry I had to talk to. That will probably be a feeling I will have in the future but I won't act upon it for your sake. "no thinking" bad idea. I don't see what you can possibly see in me, or did see in me. I admit I'm guilty in being a fucker, a kind of person I would not want you to hang around with. The only difference is the fact that my intentions were true and good, my actions, not so much. I am so sorry, it hurts so bad to think what I must have done to you. I hope you don't think I am just saying that. I am really sorry, I will end by saying goodbye, goodluck in life, you are an amazing terrific girl, one of the most amazing I have ever met, You should not think of yourself as being stupid for thinking what you thought, I am the idiot who did things all wrong. Just keep up being great. and Good bye
Love James
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From: James
Date: Oct. 18 2005 1:39pm
we broke up that night I saw you, she left but will not give up, we are pulling off the friend thing pretty well, for it just happening. I think she just can't let go though. Its weird, i hope we didnt just have a time to be close and then go on like it didn't happen like back in June. But I know how out of the blue this all is. you said you would call me today. You haven't yet. the only thing I do today is have rehearsal at 630 until around 930. so you can come over before then or after, just give me a call. sorry I missed you last night, just barely though, and which of my room mates let some random girl into my room?
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From: Strike Two: You don't play the guitar
Date: Oct 18, 2005 12:58 PM
Are you and Blair still together? I think we should talk in person again....
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From: James
Date: October 17, 2005 1:24pm
dont worry, I found it and put it in my drawer in a safe place. It is well protected, why is it so important anyway? no need to answer that. I found your sun glasses to. Those are also safe. I think you left them on purpose, to give you an excuse to see me again. just kidding, anyways. Give me a call tonight, and I don't have anything to do tomorrow except reheasal at 630.
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From: Strike Two: You don't play the guitar
Date: Oct 17, 2005 2:48 AM
I left my necklace at your place and I REALLY REALLY REALLY need that back! I almost had a heart attack when I realized it was gone!
Alena
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From: James
Date: October 15, 2005 4:39
astrological sign? that was a ball, fourth and walk. tomorrow, I don't know. No idea. I'd offer to by you a coffee but you don't like coffee and I have no money.
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From: Strike Three: You don't play the guitare
Date: Oct 15, 2005 3:41 PM
Actually my dear, Strike two was the "astrological sign" What are we going to do about tomorrow???
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: james
Date: Oct 15, 2005 3:02 PM
hello, what is happening now? this feels so sureal. Do we know what we are doing? well I do, Do you? I think that you will decide to not see me on sunday. I think we should see how that goes. I think, I think, and I think. I have a great deal of hope you will see me tomorrow. I saw it in your eyes last night. secondly, that is only two strikes you skipped strike two. which leaves the batter at the plate waiting for the next pitch. An no curves.
WE MET LATER THAT NIGHT!!!!
Fine. I see your point it might be bad, but what if? what if? it will be fine, that we can do this, I know it hasn't been long, but I miss you, you saw me at inchahoots(cant spell well,)I didnt know thatt. call me right now, please if you forgot 496-0566. please. it wont hurt, i promise
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: *Because poetry isn't everything*
Date: Oct 15, 2005 12:10 AM
Copy and Paste in your browser...................
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=4075701&Mytoken=131107F6-C05B-7647-E26294A77888363923292756
I wish there was something I could say. Maybe just thank you. For "sucking up" your pride enough to realize what happened. It wasn't all your fault either though. I realized a while ago the mistakes I made and wanted for a while to rectify them, but I couldn't. To be honest I can pin point the bad things I did and the mistakes I made. I can pinpoint the mistakes you made, but somehow in my head, those mistakes just don't seem like enough to have broken us up. Which means (at least to me) that there was something else that I wasn't seeing. I am not sure what I want to do about the blocking you thing, because when we get along, it's fine. But when we don't, I get bad things from you and that's just not nice or fun. I also don't know what to do on the whole seeing you again thing. See, I saw you once at Incahoots and had a semi-nervous breakdown and that was again, not nice or fun. So I don't know. We've gone already 6 months and only seeing each other 2 or 3 times. Is it really all that important that we see each other again? No good can come of it.... I know what it's like to have that feeling... I can't drive by that little turn out on the RIM between the dump and running springs with out thinking of you. I can't go to the BLOCK in Costa Mesa with out thinking of you again. I know that feeling. And I'm sorry that you are feeling that now........
----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: james
Date: Oct 14, 2005 9:36 PM
Because I really miss you. I hope you don't take this the wrong way, cause you would probably hate that, Its just you have been on my mind and it has been driving me crazy to not be able to talk to you. I really want to. To see you, and everything. please don't just block me again. please at least let me talk to you on the phone. I cant stand the fact I can't watch a certain movie because it was one I saw on your bed or that we saw together. Everything just makes me think of you, but not being able to talk with you or anything is horrible. If you don't want to reply just know I don't blame you for anything, I finnally sucked up my stupid pride and realized what I have done. So I know everything that happened was my fault, I know the mistake I made , But I don't want to make the mistake in not having you in my life at all. I want at least to see you again. before you go to Europe. so please respond. or at least believe me. Im sorry,