u SURE u want an up-date?
ummm...okay so i can honestly say that life is pissing me off right nowwwww.
Living with my grandparents in Redding really isn't SOO bad cuz it's teaching me responsibility...but then again it SUCKS cuz I can't DO anything!! like a wise black man once said "i'm locked up...they won't let me out"
haha
anywayz yeah, school is a lot better for me though cuz I'm actually getting my stuff done and it's all bueno...but like...ARGH i'm SOO frustrated.
I miss "someone" like friggin crazy...gosh...he is lovely...but i am soo sad cuz i dunno if i'm EVER gunna see him again...who would have known that that hug was going to be the last one? If I would have known...I may not have ever let go.
But that's life.
And there are cute boys here too...but they aren't like that one guy...and even if I were to try to hook up with one of them in effort to forget how much i miss "him" ...i couldn't cuz all of the cute ones have GIRLFRIENDS anywayz!
i hate girlfriends.
speaking of this subject...tomorrow is Valentines Day...and I am alone and have NO Valentine.
:(
this suckz.
and i may just be getting fat and un-cute.
This REALLY suckz.
k i'll stop complaining for now.
the one good thing I can say about everything is that I finally have a "Dad" and also that I'm finally clear headed...no substances constantly in my system to cloud my vision or help me make more wrong decisions.
That means now I can fuck things up ALL BY MYSELF.
what a venture that will be.
i have an ortho appointment is Sacramento tomorrow...damn how I wish I could stop and see Mr. Eicks 6th period class...I would pay a million dollars to see those people again.
It just shows how much I took advantage of my life and the freedoms I had and the GREAT people I knew...and now I'm alone...and it sucks. Well I have a little less than 6 months till I'm 18...we'll see what happens then.
wish me luck? or death?
either one will suffide for this situation.
;D
<3333manda
Living with my grandparents in Redding really isn't SOO bad cuz it's teaching me responsibility...but then again it SUCKS cuz I can't DO anything!! like a wise black man once said "i'm locked up...they won't let me out"
haha
anywayz yeah, school is a lot better for me though cuz I'm actually getting my stuff done and it's all bueno...but like...ARGH i'm SOO frustrated.
I miss "someone" like friggin crazy...gosh...he is lovely...but i am soo sad cuz i dunno if i'm EVER gunna see him again...who would have known that that hug was going to be the last one? If I would have known...I may not have ever let go.
But that's life.
And there are cute boys here too...but they aren't like that one guy...and even if I were to try to hook up with one of them in effort to forget how much i miss "him" ...i couldn't cuz all of the cute ones have GIRLFRIENDS anywayz!
i hate girlfriends.
speaking of this subject...tomorrow is Valentines Day...and I am alone and have NO Valentine.
:(
this suckz.
and i may just be getting fat and un-cute.
This REALLY suckz.
k i'll stop complaining for now.
the one good thing I can say about everything is that I finally have a "Dad" and also that I'm finally clear headed...no substances constantly in my system to cloud my vision or help me make more wrong decisions.
That means now I can fuck things up ALL BY MYSELF.
what a venture that will be.
i have an ortho appointment is Sacramento tomorrow...damn how I wish I could stop and see Mr. Eicks 6th period class...I would pay a million dollars to see those people again.
It just shows how much I took advantage of my life and the freedoms I had and the GREAT people I knew...and now I'm alone...and it sucks. Well I have a little less than 6 months till I'm 18...we'll see what happens then.
wish me luck? or death?
either one will suffide for this situation.
;D
<3333manda