blue light special
today was so good. i got up late, went to rowlands house and got him up. we headed out and grabbed thomas to do the blue light special at walmart. it was actually lots of fun, we loaded up our carts full of merchandise aand stuff and did our thing... some people tipped their carts, full of lamps.eggs.cucumber.tampons.condoms.fish.etc etc...over as they were running towards the door screaming. we hit up subway and went skating.. today brought back all those times from last winter. when everything in my life was normal, complete and so fucknig comfortable. i would give anything to go back 12-15 months. anything at all, back when shows were packed with all your best friends, back when i wasnt failing school, back when i was working at the gas station and taking cases of beer daily. back when i was on good terms with everyone. back when i had the space ship and would drive downtown every day with my friends just to hang out and shop at 52.5...back when i didnt have any addictions, back when i never had to worry about being tried as an adult. all those things are gone, they wont return. but im becoming content with what i am now, its not the best, its not at all the same. but its me now and i welcome him into my life.