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so today is me and erins 5 month anniversary. its hard to believe its been 5 months. every since i went out with sarah for 2 years ive had like 5 relationships that have gone one month. im so used to that, and every once in a while i stop and think wow its been more than a month lol but this one is defiantly different then the rest. i always felt like i was fighting to stay with whoever i was with. and i was always waiting for us to break up, and there was always problems. basically i never felt like they cared about me and was looking for anything serious. and deep down i always knew we were never right for each other. i guess i can be picky when it comes to what kinda girl i want. ive always been waiting for this perfect girl in my head to come along. as most of my friends know i like short brunettes lolol so right off the bat erin fits that lolol. and i always just wanted a girl that would do the things for me that i always did for my girlfriends. i would leave them notes and stuff in there car. and in our first month i was leaving work and i got in my car and found a little note from erin. it was so cute. i just wanted a girl who cared about me and wanted to be with me as much as i did for them, and let me know it. and she does that all the time. plus shes funny and sweet. so since i started to like girls ive always had this perfect girl in my head but she never had a face until now. and i know everyone thinks that were young and stupid and all that and if i was reading someone elses livejournal that said all this shit i would think the same thing. but i dont care cause i really do love her and i really am happier with her than ive ever been with someone and maybe it wont last (which would suck) but that doesnt change the fact that she is the girlfriend ive always wanted and i love her.