suicide would only complicate things

[fuckgodindaface]

silence is just thoughts held back
i sit here in silence with different things going through my head
i see no reason to type them out but i do think it would be healthy to
but i'm not very healthy and i don't see myself being healthy any time soon
or even any time far from now.
i miss elementary school
life seemed to be easier then
although i wasn't very innocent for the young age i was at i don't remember being in deep thought
i don't recall drugs unless it was ny-quill
and the only troubles were finding a way to get home.

i wonder why my dad accuses me of taking stuff i didn't take
why doesn't he ever accuse me taking stuff i did take.

the time has come for more abuse
and things alike
i think too much
i need to erase my memory