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i sat down to do this, with no intention of doing it.
really, it just sort of came out of no where. i feel like i need to say something, and the part that blows my mind is that this is it. i don't even know what anymore.
i used to write in here all the time. but for the past year or so i have sort-of became cold, random, and apathetic. and i will explain each...
cold- i have lost touch. let go. of everyone, or anything that matters. now people don't get me wrong, those i love know; i just want them to have more than that. i used to be the one clamoring to each friends needs, and wanting to be with my family anytime that i wasn't surrounded by a beautiful entourage. but now, it is what i want. when i want it. and that is pretty much it. life has taught me that this sort of behavior is rash, but i just can't help it. not anymore. but that needs to change. fast. like a sailor, i am off to sea, but please, bear with me like a soldier, i will return. this isn't the end. but an awareness, and refresh.
random- it is like i don't even care anymore. i walk the streets, intoxicated. flutter by aimlessy, for everyone to stop and stare. the thing is, my life used to have purpose. it wasn't waking up everyday, to do the same thing i did yesterday. and now it is. i want to re-new myself. hang out with those i have neglected, and make time for anyone willing to spend time with me.
apathetic- this one is in the works people. really. i am sitting here, and i am aware of the things i blow off. work, school (lack thereof), and friends. i miss you. all of the above, you do me well, and i do you wrong. and for that i am sorry.
if anyone would like to get together, have a drink, or just sit and talk, get a hold of me. i am now going to put my number on here, and please don't abuse it, just call me and talk... i don't really even care if we really know each other. let's just chat, a bit. and maybe more later. lets make plans! 1-765-244-1400
your boi,
trav
really, it just sort of came out of no where. i feel like i need to say something, and the part that blows my mind is that this is it. i don't even know what anymore.
i used to write in here all the time. but for the past year or so i have sort-of became cold, random, and apathetic. and i will explain each...
cold- i have lost touch. let go. of everyone, or anything that matters. now people don't get me wrong, those i love know; i just want them to have more than that. i used to be the one clamoring to each friends needs, and wanting to be with my family anytime that i wasn't surrounded by a beautiful entourage. but now, it is what i want. when i want it. and that is pretty much it. life has taught me that this sort of behavior is rash, but i just can't help it. not anymore. but that needs to change. fast. like a sailor, i am off to sea, but please, bear with me like a soldier, i will return. this isn't the end. but an awareness, and refresh.
random- it is like i don't even care anymore. i walk the streets, intoxicated. flutter by aimlessy, for everyone to stop and stare. the thing is, my life used to have purpose. it wasn't waking up everyday, to do the same thing i did yesterday. and now it is. i want to re-new myself. hang out with those i have neglected, and make time for anyone willing to spend time with me.
apathetic- this one is in the works people. really. i am sitting here, and i am aware of the things i blow off. work, school (lack thereof), and friends. i miss you. all of the above, you do me well, and i do you wrong. and for that i am sorry.
if anyone would like to get together, have a drink, or just sit and talk, get a hold of me. i am now going to put my number on here, and please don't abuse it, just call me and talk... i don't really even care if we really know each other. let's just chat, a bit. and maybe more later. lets make plans! 1-765-244-1400
your boi,
trav