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i'm staying in the house i lived in for eleven years until thursday. it's weird being here.. REALLY weird. my room.. has all my trophies and stuff. i tried not to burst out in tears when i walked in it again, i have so many memories in that room. so many. and this neighborhood. just driving around that last turn and being able to see all of the strip.. i get this tingly feeling in my stomach. i miss it here.. but it's like i'm too emotional for some reason to come back to it all.
little things are weird. this was my computer, and now i ask if i can go on. or i ask if i can have something to eat, and he says "sure hunny.. you dont have to ask." but i do. it's not my house anymore, but it feels like it when i come. and i guess it does to him, too.
ah, court tomorrow. bright and early. i think all will go well. drug rehab classes for sure, maybe some community service. sigh.. fucking rehab. mwahaha.
i just found out tonight i'm staying two extra days. i don't even think i packed enough for that. oh well. hopefully i can see jessica t, stefania, chris, joey.. and maybe a few other people while i'm out here. i wish i could get in touch with amanda [my best friend], but we're not supposed to talk.. so i have no way.
hmm. sleep tonight. none last night. just went outside and smoked a bowl. cold here. vegas is... unexplainable for me.
little things are weird. this was my computer, and now i ask if i can go on. or i ask if i can have something to eat, and he says "sure hunny.. you dont have to ask." but i do. it's not my house anymore, but it feels like it when i come. and i guess it does to him, too.
ah, court tomorrow. bright and early. i think all will go well. drug rehab classes for sure, maybe some community service. sigh.. fucking rehab. mwahaha.
i just found out tonight i'm staying two extra days. i don't even think i packed enough for that. oh well. hopefully i can see jessica t, stefania, chris, joey.. and maybe a few other people while i'm out here. i wish i could get in touch with amanda [my best friend], but we're not supposed to talk.. so i have no way.
hmm. sleep tonight. none last night. just went outside and smoked a bowl. cold here. vegas is... unexplainable for me.