Quotes from another lifetime that still apply
"No one good ever likes me. I dont like that very much. Its always the creeps, or the users, or something like that."
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"For all that is real in my head....you are fake.
For all that is good in my heart...you are evil.
For all that I am inside.....you are nothing.
For all that I feel...I cannot.
For all that I can accomplish...you tear me down.
For all that I care about...you make me hate.
For all that the reasons I loved you...you destroyed."
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'"you're overly melodramatic. you need to stop making analogies. it
just seems like everytime i talk to you, you have to have a comeback for
everything i say. like you can't just accept what i say and say something of your
own, it's just you replying, or me replying all the time. it's never been
just us talking. everyone around you is maturing and changing while you
choose to stay where you are. i've grown during the time we've been apart, and
i want love, not comebacks. i want something that feels true, and with you,
it just seems false because you can never just talk to me. everything stays
the same with you, but we need to adapt if this relationship can survive. i'm
scared it won't, and i'm scared you've found someone else, so i found
someone else. because i'm insecure, and i need help, and you can't be there to help
me.
"something kinda sad about the way that things have come to be.
whats become of subtlety?"'
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"Im in desperate need for cash.....
And a plane ticket....
And a life....
I need some help........"
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"Have you ever gotten that feeling inside? That one where you just have got to cut yourself? But you can't find any sharp objects? Doesn't it suck? When you just want to bleed and bleed and bleed your life away but no one will let you?
Or when all you need is a good fuck but no one is around? Or when you just miss someone so terribly you actually feel physical pain? Or when you just so desperately need to get away and no one will let go of you? Have you ever felt that your whole life is tumbling down around you? That everyone is ripping your life apart?
Has anyone ever asked you so many stupid questions before? "
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"Fuck my life. Fuck my mom. Fuck my friends. Fuck everything. Everyone expects so much of me. I can't keep up with them. They fear what I am. They fear what I have to offer. They fear me in general. Why doesn't anyone love me? Why can't I get what I want? What I need? Why can't people just leave me alone? What's wrong with this world? It's so fucked up. It's developing so quickly. And everyone is running trying to keep up. Why can't they just sit down and relax? Why can't all people vanish off the face of the earth? Just leave me and the people that I love. That I want with me. Te biggest question I have is Why? Why me? Why this? Why that? What the fuck is wrong with me. I can't fit in with anybody. How did this happen to me? Im wide awake and I can't fall asleep. And every night is the worst night ever. Im just a kid. Why can't people see that? Who gives a fuck if I'm in 9th grade. Im still just a child. Only 14. Too much is expected of me. I think I'll hurt myself now."
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"Why does the world always seem to work against me? I seem to be rejcted even more each day. I feel like I'm being ripped apart by all the people around me."
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'"This world is trying to kill me. It has wanted me dead from the start. Chip away at the spirit first and the body will follow. That is the plan. We are fools in thinking this world is a playground. We grope through each colorless day and find things only to feel there is still something missing, something unknown, something unknowable and the days go on with one empty action after another, pretending there?s purpose to each unfulfilling goal and the faith comes bright and angelic and moments later falls into bleak winter, and up and down and up and down. I?m so sick of the struggle, the uncertainty, the endless believing and non-believing and the only question is when do I give up. When comes the breaking point. When comes the point when exhaustion is the only truth that means anything at all."'
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"Ooh, Well I confess
I don't know what to make from all this mess
Don't have much time for sympathy
But it never happened to me
You're feelin down now
I don?t know where I'll be when you come around
And now it's time to make a choice
And all I wanna hear is your voice"
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"Time stops dead, inches forward, stops dead. Whether moving or not, a hundred oppressive thoughts are compressed into the frame of each moment. I think of all the human relationships I've ever had, all of them marred by broken trust and hidden contempt. I think of all the things I know they?ve said behind my back, out loud or in their minds. I think of all the motives they ever had for loving me, or befriending me, or accepting me. All of them came with their own set of justifications, and for each justification there was an underlining ugliness.
I try to think of someone who might be on my side, someone who is truly with me -- one person that would make the vulnerability and isolation more bearable. I can think of no one. Everywhere I look it is the same: the endless dance of control and submission, the vulnerabilities exploited, the beauty bound up and locked away, the spirit mined until its resources are exhausted.
No one is ever truly with anyone. In the end, as always, we are alone."
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"Everyone is struggling to conceal their own personal terrors. I wear my terror on the outside. I wear it on my face, in my walk, on my breath. It can be heard in my every word, seen in my every destination. I am terror itself in that I am terrified of everything. I have lived with it so long - slept with it, woke with it, ate with it, fucked with it - that it has transformed me into a reflection of itself.
People walk through life pretending to be in control. They rarely question the ground beneath their feet or the delicate balance within themselves, but all the time their world lies at the edge of their own desolation, waiting for that next curve that shatters the illusion and leaves everything stiff and raw as an open wound. I know this place well. I spend most of my time here, rummaging for something I?d lost somewhere along the line. Something that escaped me long before I knew enough to keep it. Something I can no longer define."
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"love is overrated...so is hate..to many people say they love you when they really dont...and too many people hate others for no reason...the human mind is so incredibly uncharted and undeveloped that it makes us seem as if we were still cave men..yes, dont get me wrong we did invent cars but the idiot who decided to test cigarrettes on animals instead of humans was the dumbest thing in the world...we all know animals dont react to things the same way we do...we have totally different everything. and then letting us smoke so fucking much all the fucking time was stupid too! the pollution rates are so high...that dumb black cloud thats killing people..i mean geez how stupid were we? how much more stupid can we get?"
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Wow. Just wow. FML
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"For all that is real in my head....you are fake.
For all that is good in my heart...you are evil.
For all that I am inside.....you are nothing.
For all that I feel...I cannot.
For all that I can accomplish...you tear me down.
For all that I care about...you make me hate.
For all that the reasons I loved you...you destroyed."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
'"you're overly melodramatic. you need to stop making analogies. it
just seems like everytime i talk to you, you have to have a comeback for
everything i say. like you can't just accept what i say and say something of your
own, it's just you replying, or me replying all the time. it's never been
just us talking. everyone around you is maturing and changing while you
choose to stay where you are. i've grown during the time we've been apart, and
i want love, not comebacks. i want something that feels true, and with you,
it just seems false because you can never just talk to me. everything stays
the same with you, but we need to adapt if this relationship can survive. i'm
scared it won't, and i'm scared you've found someone else, so i found
someone else. because i'm insecure, and i need help, and you can't be there to help
me.
"something kinda sad about the way that things have come to be.
whats become of subtlety?"'
~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Im in desperate need for cash.....
And a plane ticket....
And a life....
I need some help........"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Have you ever gotten that feeling inside? That one where you just have got to cut yourself? But you can't find any sharp objects? Doesn't it suck? When you just want to bleed and bleed and bleed your life away but no one will let you?
Or when all you need is a good fuck but no one is around? Or when you just miss someone so terribly you actually feel physical pain? Or when you just so desperately need to get away and no one will let go of you? Have you ever felt that your whole life is tumbling down around you? That everyone is ripping your life apart?
Has anyone ever asked you so many stupid questions before? "
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Fuck my life. Fuck my mom. Fuck my friends. Fuck everything. Everyone expects so much of me. I can't keep up with them. They fear what I am. They fear what I have to offer. They fear me in general. Why doesn't anyone love me? Why can't I get what I want? What I need? Why can't people just leave me alone? What's wrong with this world? It's so fucked up. It's developing so quickly. And everyone is running trying to keep up. Why can't they just sit down and relax? Why can't all people vanish off the face of the earth? Just leave me and the people that I love. That I want with me. Te biggest question I have is Why? Why me? Why this? Why that? What the fuck is wrong with me. I can't fit in with anybody. How did this happen to me? Im wide awake and I can't fall asleep. And every night is the worst night ever. Im just a kid. Why can't people see that? Who gives a fuck if I'm in 9th grade. Im still just a child. Only 14. Too much is expected of me. I think I'll hurt myself now."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Why does the world always seem to work against me? I seem to be rejcted even more each day. I feel like I'm being ripped apart by all the people around me."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
'"This world is trying to kill me. It has wanted me dead from the start. Chip away at the spirit first and the body will follow. That is the plan. We are fools in thinking this world is a playground. We grope through each colorless day and find things only to feel there is still something missing, something unknown, something unknowable and the days go on with one empty action after another, pretending there?s purpose to each unfulfilling goal and the faith comes bright and angelic and moments later falls into bleak winter, and up and down and up and down. I?m so sick of the struggle, the uncertainty, the endless believing and non-believing and the only question is when do I give up. When comes the breaking point. When comes the point when exhaustion is the only truth that means anything at all."'
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Ooh, Well I confess
I don't know what to make from all this mess
Don't have much time for sympathy
But it never happened to me
You're feelin down now
I don?t know where I'll be when you come around
And now it's time to make a choice
And all I wanna hear is your voice"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Time stops dead, inches forward, stops dead. Whether moving or not, a hundred oppressive thoughts are compressed into the frame of each moment. I think of all the human relationships I've ever had, all of them marred by broken trust and hidden contempt. I think of all the things I know they?ve said behind my back, out loud or in their minds. I think of all the motives they ever had for loving me, or befriending me, or accepting me. All of them came with their own set of justifications, and for each justification there was an underlining ugliness.
I try to think of someone who might be on my side, someone who is truly with me -- one person that would make the vulnerability and isolation more bearable. I can think of no one. Everywhere I look it is the same: the endless dance of control and submission, the vulnerabilities exploited, the beauty bound up and locked away, the spirit mined until its resources are exhausted.
No one is ever truly with anyone. In the end, as always, we are alone."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Everyone is struggling to conceal their own personal terrors. I wear my terror on the outside. I wear it on my face, in my walk, on my breath. It can be heard in my every word, seen in my every destination. I am terror itself in that I am terrified of everything. I have lived with it so long - slept with it, woke with it, ate with it, fucked with it - that it has transformed me into a reflection of itself.
People walk through life pretending to be in control. They rarely question the ground beneath their feet or the delicate balance within themselves, but all the time their world lies at the edge of their own desolation, waiting for that next curve that shatters the illusion and leaves everything stiff and raw as an open wound. I know this place well. I spend most of my time here, rummaging for something I?d lost somewhere along the line. Something that escaped me long before I knew enough to keep it. Something I can no longer define."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"love is overrated...so is hate..to many people say they love you when they really dont...and too many people hate others for no reason...the human mind is so incredibly uncharted and undeveloped that it makes us seem as if we were still cave men..yes, dont get me wrong we did invent cars but the idiot who decided to test cigarrettes on animals instead of humans was the dumbest thing in the world...we all know animals dont react to things the same way we do...we have totally different everything. and then letting us smoke so fucking much all the fucking time was stupid too! the pollution rates are so high...that dumb black cloud thats killing people..i mean geez how stupid were we? how much more stupid can we get?"
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Wow. Just wow. FML