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Well, life lately has been interesting. Interestingly HORRIBLE. Roy's dad died, thus causing him to move to Oklahoma about 6 months sooner than originally planned. Therefore, I am alone again. My angel was stolen. Again.
However, I have started talking to Caleb on a regular basis again. I found that on a scale of 1-10, he misses me 10. And he's still in love with me. *smile* It does raise my spirits, but then I think about why I STOPPED talking to him in the first place. Waaaaay to much fucking DRAME. I'm scared of that. That's why it would be really hard for me to get together with him again, unless of course, he actually lived in the same city as me. But oh well I guess. I do still love the boy. I mean, I WAS engaged to him for roughly a year. Anyway, I guess I still love him. Just not nearly as much, and not nearly in the same way. I'm sure that could be fixed though. It isn't impossible.
Roy moving away completely obliterated my relationship with Natalie. He was the reason we hung out so much. Considering that our boyfriends were like best friends, we were a common quartet. Now that Roy is gone, a threesome isn't at all appealing. We don't talk much anymore.
I have taken someone's virginity. It was incredibly unexpected and spontaneous. His name is Scott. I work with him. He is one horny bastard. And he has one HUGE problem. His girlfriend is MORMON! But, it does suck because that's all we are. Fuck buddies. There's no passion at all, so I find NO satisfaction in it what so ever. I don't even get a kiss. It's really fucked up. Now, if he were to leave his girlfriend, and go out with me, I'm sure it would be different. But that's not going to happen. So, I'm not even going to hope for it. I mean, we DO have a bond, how could we not? It's just...yea, I'm pretty sure we wont be dating.
Christmas presents were doubled this year. And it was the worst thing you could get two of. My mom, and my dad, got me EXACTLY THE SAME FUCKING STEREO! I mean, hey, it IS awesome that I got TWO stereos for christmas. But it sucks that I don't get to keep them both. But then again, it's really USELESS having two. I barely have enough room for one. So, I'm getting shoes and CD player from my mother instead.
John is moving back to Tempe. That sucks. Now I can't even have a crush on him anymore. Everyone is leaving me. Fucking everyone! Roy, John, Brian, Kaleigh, possibly Simon and Ashley (but it's too soon to tell)...Hmmm. Well I guess thats not everyone, but it's still a lot of people to leave in a span of about 3 weeks.
Job is going well I suppose. Tomotaka (my general manager, most common term: BOSS) quit. It was the worst possible fucking thing to ever happen that week. Fucking Aretha came, and I swear that bitch hates me with a passion. She cut my hours fucking in half. But it's ok, I got most of the back. Stupid bitch. And the NEW general manager. SHIT! Fucking mexican bitch sends me this VIBE! Regina doesn't understand why, I guess she's really nice, but Ashley felt the same way. She used this TONE. Shit. I may just be over reacting. We'll see how I feel about her on monday.
Hmmm. School is in 5 minutes. So, I'll stop telling my life story for now. If I get enough comments, I may continue! So, POST AND POST AND POST AND POST!!! Make me happy, and I'll keep updating. =)
Yours for a little while I guess...
Ashley.
However, I have started talking to Caleb on a regular basis again. I found that on a scale of 1-10, he misses me 10. And he's still in love with me. *smile* It does raise my spirits, but then I think about why I STOPPED talking to him in the first place. Waaaaay to much fucking DRAME. I'm scared of that. That's why it would be really hard for me to get together with him again, unless of course, he actually lived in the same city as me. But oh well I guess. I do still love the boy. I mean, I WAS engaged to him for roughly a year. Anyway, I guess I still love him. Just not nearly as much, and not nearly in the same way. I'm sure that could be fixed though. It isn't impossible.
Roy moving away completely obliterated my relationship with Natalie. He was the reason we hung out so much. Considering that our boyfriends were like best friends, we were a common quartet. Now that Roy is gone, a threesome isn't at all appealing. We don't talk much anymore.
I have taken someone's virginity. It was incredibly unexpected and spontaneous. His name is Scott. I work with him. He is one horny bastard. And he has one HUGE problem. His girlfriend is MORMON! But, it does suck because that's all we are. Fuck buddies. There's no passion at all, so I find NO satisfaction in it what so ever. I don't even get a kiss. It's really fucked up. Now, if he were to leave his girlfriend, and go out with me, I'm sure it would be different. But that's not going to happen. So, I'm not even going to hope for it. I mean, we DO have a bond, how could we not? It's just...yea, I'm pretty sure we wont be dating.
Christmas presents were doubled this year. And it was the worst thing you could get two of. My mom, and my dad, got me EXACTLY THE SAME FUCKING STEREO! I mean, hey, it IS awesome that I got TWO stereos for christmas. But it sucks that I don't get to keep them both. But then again, it's really USELESS having two. I barely have enough room for one. So, I'm getting shoes and CD player from my mother instead.
John is moving back to Tempe. That sucks. Now I can't even have a crush on him anymore. Everyone is leaving me. Fucking everyone! Roy, John, Brian, Kaleigh, possibly Simon and Ashley (but it's too soon to tell)...Hmmm. Well I guess thats not everyone, but it's still a lot of people to leave in a span of about 3 weeks.
Job is going well I suppose. Tomotaka (my general manager, most common term: BOSS) quit. It was the worst possible fucking thing to ever happen that week. Fucking Aretha came, and I swear that bitch hates me with a passion. She cut my hours fucking in half. But it's ok, I got most of the back. Stupid bitch. And the NEW general manager. SHIT! Fucking mexican bitch sends me this VIBE! Regina doesn't understand why, I guess she's really nice, but Ashley felt the same way. She used this TONE. Shit. I may just be over reacting. We'll see how I feel about her on monday.
Hmmm. School is in 5 minutes. So, I'll stop telling my life story for now. If I get enough comments, I may continue! So, POST AND POST AND POST AND POST!!! Make me happy, and I'll keep updating. =)
Yours for a little while I guess...
Ashley.