this is all bullshit
i am so fucking sick of everyone...i dont want to deal with peoples bullshit anymore...starting shit with me could turn to a mistake...those who dont know im not the nicest person when you piss me off...i wish people would figure that out...no wonder the two kids at columbine shot their classmates...people are really cruel and dont know when to knock it off...those who say they are your friend really arent when they cant be there for you when you need them the most...fucking pussies...if you cant play with the big dogs then stay on the porch!...i dare those who want to step up to me...i have had the shit beat out of me my whole life by guys...i think i know how to fight now...two words for those people about me...ANGER MANAGEMENT...
well i got the money for my car now...thats been about the only good thing to happen today...the rest just makes me want to leave and never come back...thats a dream come true for some...for me its an easy way to not have to deal with those that i dont want to deal with...thats a majority of the population at SEP...i dont have a problem with people until they sell me out or backstab me or start shit...im quite calm...but right now my nerves are so raw with all the shit that has gone on lately...i just want to scream bloody fucking murder...i really feel like a 400 lb person is sitting on me right now...thats how much pressure im under...close to cracking...i wish there was a manual that people could read about me and maybe they would understand...all i want is for someone to say i understand where you are coming from...is that too much to ask for? must be cuz it doesnt seem to be happening...
so i guess whatever...maybe if i cut off ties with everyone they will realize what happened...i wont feel guilty not talking to a single person at SEP anymore...i am sick of trying so hard only to get thrown back down...so maybe they will learn maybe they wont who cares? i sure as shit do not!!!!
i love nicholas ryan palmer
well i got the money for my car now...thats been about the only good thing to happen today...the rest just makes me want to leave and never come back...thats a dream come true for some...for me its an easy way to not have to deal with those that i dont want to deal with...thats a majority of the population at SEP...i dont have a problem with people until they sell me out or backstab me or start shit...im quite calm...but right now my nerves are so raw with all the shit that has gone on lately...i just want to scream bloody fucking murder...i really feel like a 400 lb person is sitting on me right now...thats how much pressure im under...close to cracking...i wish there was a manual that people could read about me and maybe they would understand...all i want is for someone to say i understand where you are coming from...is that too much to ask for? must be cuz it doesnt seem to be happening...
so i guess whatever...maybe if i cut off ties with everyone they will realize what happened...i wont feel guilty not talking to a single person at SEP anymore...i am sick of trying so hard only to get thrown back down...so maybe they will learn maybe they wont who cares? i sure as shit do not!!!!
i love nicholas ryan palmer