well..
i just got back from ct this-smorning and i love it there. when i was there i didn't feel like shit like i do when i'm home.
i feel like i've lost everyone. all my "friends". all those kids who liked hanging out with me a one point don't anymore, and it sucks. i feel hate, or unwanted.. like those kids in class you don't want to sit next to (or like not wanting to shake john murphy's hand in church). but you do it anyway, and you don't act like there weird or gross to there face. i feel like i get spit on, i'm not COOL enought to be around the kid i thought were friends. the kids that even if you weird or smell funny (they'll tell you) but still will be your friend. it seems like i got left behind. i'm the little kid that you put up with. the one you run into b/c there around people you know. but it's ok, i've stop caring. after thinking about this for a while i can think of a select few who i still have faith in. who i'd fall back and hope they would catch me. but for the rest FUCK YOU.. i hope making some feel like there hated is what you were going for b/c it work. and i know some of those people don't read this, but it ok.. i'll make sure to tell them the same.
i can honestly say i couldn't think of on reason to come back yesterday. i cryed knowing i was gonna come back with this bullshit, and sure enought it started again today. SORRY i was such a SHITty friend!
i feel like i've lost everyone. all my "friends". all those kids who liked hanging out with me a one point don't anymore, and it sucks. i feel hate, or unwanted.. like those kids in class you don't want to sit next to (or like not wanting to shake john murphy's hand in church). but you do it anyway, and you don't act like there weird or gross to there face. i feel like i get spit on, i'm not COOL enought to be around the kid i thought were friends. the kids that even if you weird or smell funny (they'll tell you) but still will be your friend. it seems like i got left behind. i'm the little kid that you put up with. the one you run into b/c there around people you know. but it's ok, i've stop caring. after thinking about this for a while i can think of a select few who i still have faith in. who i'd fall back and hope they would catch me. but for the rest FUCK YOU.. i hope making some feel like there hated is what you were going for b/c it work. and i know some of those people don't read this, but it ok.. i'll make sure to tell them the same.
i can honestly say i couldn't think of on reason to come back yesterday. i cryed knowing i was gonna come back with this bullshit, and sure enought it started again today. SORRY i was such a SHITty friend!