tears of joy.
it just hit me. and i can feel it so deeply. and as i type this i can feel the warm tears running down my face because for a very moment this feels so real. i saw it, i felt it. i finally understood this. i received just a glimpse of the future and reality. and the present and how my surroundings now will never have to be mine again.
i sat here and was just listening to music and it hit me. and all i could do was put my face in my hands and feel and see and know. only for a second did i feel the final accumulation of it all. the distance the time. the realization that the waiting is over. i saw all my old doubts, how my reality use to be my day dreams and all i did was allow them to be for so long because i let them. where did this strength and determination come from? i am amazed with myself and i cant only respond with tears.
this really is amazing.
i sat here and was just listening to music and it hit me. and all i could do was put my face in my hands and feel and see and know. only for a second did i feel the final accumulation of it all. the distance the time. the realization that the waiting is over. i saw all my old doubts, how my reality use to be my day dreams and all i did was allow them to be for so long because i let them. where did this strength and determination come from? i am amazed with myself and i cant only respond with tears.
this really is amazing.