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so there's been a lot going on but i haven't said anything about it on here.
so.
jan.03.06
emergency room and death.
i don't feel like typing much so heres something i wrote to someone already.
i went to the doctors today and my doctor almost shit a brick because she found like 93867 things wrong with me and told me to go to the emergency room because basically there could be some major shit going wrong and she said flat out i needed to get it checked or some of it could be deadly etc etc. i hate the er so i said id go the next day and everyone started freaking out like i was gonna die overnight and i had to sign a waiver saying she told me to go to er and i refused, just incase i die and theres a lawsuit i guess.
so ill be there all tomorrow getting a bunch of shit looked at and everyone is going out of their way to make me feel like i'm as good as dead. it's fucking bad, my fucking doctor looked scared shitless. so now i'm starting to get scared and i scared pete too and blah, i fucking hate this. i don't even know what to do.
it's worse than i let it seem and i'm just mortified and lost. wish me luck, please. i need it.
since then i've been in and out of the doctor's and the emergency room a lot. my serious test like the cat scan came back normal, but i still have a shitload of things wrong with me.
i'm off my adderall & some of my lithium, my doctor says it's probably too high of a dosage since i lost a lot of weight since that was perscribed.
my electrolytes are extremely low and i'm very dehydrated. my blood pressure is high as fuck, which is worse than it seems because usually it's lower than normal for me. my stomach almost always hurts and i puke sometimes, probably because of all the pills i have to take. i have a constant headache and i'm so fucking frustrated i'm going to go insane.
so, there you go.
so.
jan.03.06
emergency room and death.
i don't feel like typing much so heres something i wrote to someone already.
i went to the doctors today and my doctor almost shit a brick because she found like 93867 things wrong with me and told me to go to the emergency room because basically there could be some major shit going wrong and she said flat out i needed to get it checked or some of it could be deadly etc etc. i hate the er so i said id go the next day and everyone started freaking out like i was gonna die overnight and i had to sign a waiver saying she told me to go to er and i refused, just incase i die and theres a lawsuit i guess.
so ill be there all tomorrow getting a bunch of shit looked at and everyone is going out of their way to make me feel like i'm as good as dead. it's fucking bad, my fucking doctor looked scared shitless. so now i'm starting to get scared and i scared pete too and blah, i fucking hate this. i don't even know what to do.
it's worse than i let it seem and i'm just mortified and lost. wish me luck, please. i need it.
since then i've been in and out of the doctor's and the emergency room a lot. my serious test like the cat scan came back normal, but i still have a shitload of things wrong with me.
i'm off my adderall & some of my lithium, my doctor says it's probably too high of a dosage since i lost a lot of weight since that was perscribed.
my electrolytes are extremely low and i'm very dehydrated. my blood pressure is high as fuck, which is worse than it seems because usually it's lower than normal for me. my stomach almost always hurts and i puke sometimes, probably because of all the pills i have to take. i have a constant headache and i'm so fucking frustrated i'm going to go insane.
so, there you go.