farewell
i think mike is about to break up with me his mom and stepdad wont allow him to see me. His stepdad makes smart remarks about me being pregnant and his mom always tells him that seeing me is a bad idea. i hate this! why cant they just leave us be!! i hate birthcontrol but i take it because thats what his mom wanted so what the hell. he hasnt even broke up with me yet and im freakin out he hasnt said that he loved me or missed me, he usually does.its been a week since ive seen him and he doesnt seem thrilled about seeing me tomorrow. i just wanna die i'd rather that than feel this pain all over again. i cant take it again im not strong enough for it. i feel so alone. what really sucks is i feel like for my brithday he's gonna play it off like everythings ok and then after a few days is when he'll break up with me. i cant stand this feeling if he's gonna do it than he shouldnt put it off. i knew it was to good to be true. i hate love i hate loving someone who cant love back!!i hurt so much right now i feel like im dying.