Release.
Last night was just blah. I was too tired and crappy feeling to enjoy the music. I danced a little bit, but most of the night I just wanted to be in bed, sound a fucking sleep. It sucked. The music was pretty good and so was the venue. But I just wasnt feeling it.
at all.
I found out at 4 that I didnt have to promote. So I went to steves car and crashed. Thats the first time ive ever left a partie due to feeling crappy. But whatever.. Plus I had gotten my other conch stapling done right before we left for the partie, so my ear and head werent feeling too good.
I just wanted to be home, in a warm bed, watching a movie with nikki.
but whatever..
After the partie I came home and crashed. I had yet another dream about my friend Bill. This time I actually saw him in it. It was really weird. In my dream I like knew about all this bad stuff that was gonna be happening and all these people dying, and all this weird crap. Then at the end of the dream I see Bill and this other kid walking down these steps, and something clicks in my head like * Oh theres bill, I gotta see him before he dies*.. so I run over and go * BILL! Come give me a hug before you go anywhere!*, he smiles and walks up the stairs to where I am, hugs me and goes * Aww.. Im sure Ill see you again soon*, at this point I just hugged him even harder, and he just stops and looks at me with this look of concern... then the phone once again woke me up.
It was fucking weird.
I woke up all super disorientated and feverish feeling. It sucked.
I spent the rest of the night feeling like crap. Untill nikki called. But that sucked too, bc Im prolly not going to see her next till friday. Yuck!
that definately sucks..
I wish I had a car =/
blah.
my ear hurts...
I really need to find a job.. like.. now. I hate not having money. It fucking sucks.
yup.
but yeah.. ima go back to watching tv..
later..
at all.
I found out at 4 that I didnt have to promote. So I went to steves car and crashed. Thats the first time ive ever left a partie due to feeling crappy. But whatever.. Plus I had gotten my other conch stapling done right before we left for the partie, so my ear and head werent feeling too good.
I just wanted to be home, in a warm bed, watching a movie with nikki.
but whatever..
After the partie I came home and crashed. I had yet another dream about my friend Bill. This time I actually saw him in it. It was really weird. In my dream I like knew about all this bad stuff that was gonna be happening and all these people dying, and all this weird crap. Then at the end of the dream I see Bill and this other kid walking down these steps, and something clicks in my head like * Oh theres bill, I gotta see him before he dies*.. so I run over and go * BILL! Come give me a hug before you go anywhere!*, he smiles and walks up the stairs to where I am, hugs me and goes * Aww.. Im sure Ill see you again soon*, at this point I just hugged him even harder, and he just stops and looks at me with this look of concern... then the phone once again woke me up.
It was fucking weird.
I woke up all super disorientated and feverish feeling. It sucked.
I spent the rest of the night feeling like crap. Untill nikki called. But that sucked too, bc Im prolly not going to see her next till friday. Yuck!
that definately sucks..
I wish I had a car =/
blah.
my ear hurts...
I really need to find a job.. like.. now. I hate not having money. It fucking sucks.
yup.
but yeah.. ima go back to watching tv..
later..