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well im back home. my friend picked me up, we went to a party, my friend drank one jelly shot and he got all drunk with just that shot LOL. anyways, afterwards, he took me out to eat to apple bees, cuz i was craving that oriental chicken salad, damn it was good! then we met up with my old friend adam, and we were just cruisin, and adam took me home, he stood at the hosue for a little bit, he was talking to my mom and asking her if it was true if i was pregnant and my mom said yes and he got all mad, shocked, surprised and mostly sad, he wanted to cry, and well adam he's my ex, and he loved me so much, and we were soppoused to get married along time ago, and he said no to me and thats when he broke my heart and i decided not to see him anymore and we broke up. Now that we saw each other again after 7 months that we havent seen each other, feelings came back when i saw him, but i said to myself, he denied me, he didnt treat me like a girlfriend, he said no to me, so that kept me of telling him that i still had feelings for him. he has feelings for me too, but i wonder if his feelings went away after he verified that i am pregnant. But o well, i mean, who would you guys rather me be with, aaron that hits me, yells at me cusses at me but loves me, takes care of me, or adam that is totally the opposite, he's someone he would NEVER hit me yell at me cuss at me but do vise versa.... but i think the right thing to do is keep the baby, stay with the baby father.....right? i am so confused right now!!!!!!!!!! im gonnarest i need it so bad specially that tomorrow i go back to freakin, jobcorp! >_