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For some strange reason I have become rather popular at school. Or perhaps I am just reading all this wrong... People say hello to me a million times a day and recognize me outside of class etc etc and tell me they havent seen me in ages when I have only seen them once or twice before. This is very strange. Never have I been considered cool or popular... is that what is happening?? Damn... I remember high school and the only reason why my name was known was because it was so damn uncommon, because it is also a beautiful island, and because of my questionable reputation. Hahahaa... If in the eyes of people I am not a slut anymore, why am I special? Why do people now accept my °perv-ness° rather than when it was fresh and nicer than what it is now? WHY THE HELL DO GIRLS WANT TO BE MY FRIENDS??? And I mean normal, straight, meat-eating girls. Girls I wouldnt hang out with and that if I do hang out with them its, well, I really dont so I cant say anything. Hahahahhaha! And then I think about 8th grade when I was °cool° because I was a novelty, FOBish as FOB can be and I spoke fluid french and I got into a fight with a boy... hahahah... I guess I should just enjoy my time, but then since I only hang out with Yadir and Vipul and sometimes Mishal and that's enough with me, I hate being a bitch and not wanting to hang out w other people, I dont really like to have a lot of friends at school. It's overwhelming and it takes too much work... but then does that make me a bitch? DOES IT, DAMMIT??? Am I turning into a sort of Maneesh?? The popular boy who likes to be alone with me. This is a useless journal entry.