BRB, have to go crop my droopy mantits out of the picture.
OMNOMNOM. WHAT DO YOU GUYS THINK?
Amanda, quoted for truth:
Another friend of mine.. he's just.. I can't explain it. Immature? How many lies is he going to spew; how many words will he break and deem it okay? How many freaking versions of Amanda's is he going to hit on and stuff? Can you not even deviate on the variety of girls you choose to date and screw? Yeah, I'm keeping it vulgar and to the point. You don't deserve what you do to be sugar coated. You use girls to get attention and make yourself feel good when you're a good hollow shell of a man. Tonight, you showed me that I too, am disposable because you can push me to the gutter when you're tired of me and you can manipulate my feelings when you're lonely and 'need' me. You take advantage of my good nature, smarts and advice. You take advantage of my loyalty even when you're not entitled. And then you slander me and treat me like a third world citizen when you have a new pretty face around. I'm starting to feel like I'm just another one of those faces that's needed only when necessary. That's not the definition of a friend - so I mustn't be one? It's kind of sickening to watch on the sidelines. It just makes me want to facepalm myself unconscious or something because of the level of frustration it brings me. I hate when people waste their time on trash. I hate when people rather chase drama around like a freaking donkey and carrot than on the things that really matter. Are we not civilized? Let dead dogs lie. I'm just so sick of fucking Tara. Just hearing about her raises my fucking blood pressure. You would think that scum of the universe would cease to exist after its' been dated and disposed of, but no. Not this scum. I'm tired of seeing evidence of her remnince. And I equally hate how you, and while acting so cleverly, lie straight to my face and deceive me. Truly, how dare you. Not only am I ashamed of how you act - Tara's as low as one can get, why take it upon yourself to push it beyond the brink of fairness? - I am ashamed to be your friend for when you act in such a way, I think.. I was once in Tara's position. I was once the reject, I was once the one you were that mean to, that callous to, that nasty to. I was the one you poked fun at and tormented. You were the cause of a majority of my problems back then, and the root of those problems, the falter in our relationship and trust was from that very same treatment. It makes me relive how I felt to see you do it to another. It makes me sick to think that you haven't grown up past that. When I tell you to smarten up, how dare you even think you have the right to act offended. You don't own me, you don't own our friendship and I can leave whenever I please. And yeah, you can equally act badass, like you kicked me out of it or dropped me because magically something becomes 'wrong' with the kind of person I am, but I've already seen far past that - funny how it always ends up that way with you, right? Predictable. And how dare you give me attitude, saying I can lecture you another day about Tara and your drama shit.. I wouldn't have to lecture you period if you just smartened the fuck up. You're in university and you brag about your gpa. Is it just numbers or is there actually something upstairs? Women are not your toys. We have feelings and emotions and brains. You taking advantage of us shows us all how small yours truly is. We're not just there to boost your ego or give you a good romp in the sack. We are your equals and it's about damn time you showed some respect and acted your age. I truly tried so hard to keep your fantasies and stuff out of my life, because I don't want them. I've said from the start that I had no interest, and yet it came back into conversation how many times? Whenever I was low and down - you preyed on my emotions and when I was vulnerable you told me what I wanted to hear so that you could get as close to a shot as possible. I've spent the night stewing. All of everything that's been said is just too much for me to handle. I've kept everything pretty much to myself in order to stir as little shit and drama up as possible. I've grown tired. And now that I can call you on your acting and can clearly see that you're using me for personal benefits alone, I don't have a problem with walking away. I have tried to be the good person and friend you claimed to have needed; I was your support when your ex told you she had killed your fetus; I stuck by you as the most loyalist dog would have their master. You, and you alone chained me to false beliefs, hopes, expectations. Our friendship was nothing more than words too good to be true. I have found the key - thankyou for the memories, but goodbye. I'm not going to be your circus bear. You made me jump through too many hoops, hide too many of your secrets and manipulate too many of my feelings. I was happy to jump when I knew it was for something; but now I can see that all you really wanted to do was take me to the slaughter house. I will miss you, but I will only miss the you that I thought was my friend. I know you can't say the same. I'm crying and mourning the person I have lost; although he was lost many years ago - if he even existed at all."
But I'm sure that the identical observations of six different girls are coincidential at best. imo we're all butthurt and just happened to choose the same personality traits to lash back with. Get over me prz. ;~; I don't date generic, weeabootastic internet boys who are physically and intellectual unwhelming. I do generally try to stick to boys who are on my level.