YAY
About to go out with Ryan and am really excited. The last few weeks have been really awful for me in terms of symptoms, and I just didn't have to energy to go out.. I even missed my doctor's appointment this week because I just literally did not have to energy to even get dressed, let alone shower, get in the car, and be psychoanalyzed for two hours. But the symptoms have subsided enough that I HAD SO MUCH SPARE ENERGY TODAY THAT I ACTUALLY CLEANED THE ENTIRE HOUSE. I know this sounds silly to most people, like, what the fuck is so hard about cleaning your room?, and I agree - it's really not that complicated or difficult a task at all; but when you're in the middle of an episode that was so severe that the initial symptoms were hallucinations and you basically didn't leave the couch for two weeks, you will understand just how much effort it is to clean your room when you don't even have enough energy to spare to get up and go walk to your bed so you can sleep (to say nothing of eating, using the bathroom, or personal hygiene).
Edit: It made me really sad to read this entry over and realize that probably 75% of the people who read it are going to think I'm lying, either because they think I'M a liar, or because they think that mental illness just isn't real.
Edit: It made me really sad to read this entry over and realize that probably 75% of the people who read it are going to think I'm lying, either because they think I'M a liar, or because they think that mental illness just isn't real.