James.
Dear Holly,
You were absolutely right that seeing your letter in my mailbox surprised me. I was even more surprised when I read it. I had expected to see an entire page of "HAHAHA" or something similar. I never expect anyone to be nice to me so I just want to say thank you for that.
As far as everyone already knowing about everything, I hoped word hadn't gotten out but I suppose that was unrealistic. I knew writing to Alli would mean everyone would know, which was why I didn't write for so long. I was hoping, but not really expecting, that she would write me back. I'm glad that someone cared enough to write but I guess none of my friends (Kuga, Justin, Danielle, etc.) know my address.
I recognize that I need some form of therapy but am still unsure exactly what I want to do. Part of my release conditions was to join a group of other guys in the same situation as me so I've been going to that for a few months now. The problem with the group is we are not allowed to talk about a lot of things and I am very uncomfortable speaking to a group. Sometime in the next few weeks my lawyer is arranging for me to have a psych evaluation so we'll see how that goes.
Not having the Internet to fall back on has really exposed how empty my life is. After this is all over, I am going to have to make some big changes in my life. Being a hermit has led me to my present situation and also enhanced my perviness to unacceptable levels. When we first started talking, I just enjoyed having conversations with you. Later on, I became obsessed with seeing you naked. The same thing happened with Alli, and I'm sure I would have eventually done the same thing with Kuga.
Contrary to what you might think, I DO care about you as a person. I realize I didn't show it very often, but I did appreciate your friendship. I hope I don't end up going to prison, but if I do, I will depend on you (and some others) to keep me sane. I would like it if we could keep writing to each other, even though I don't have much to talk about, it is nice to have someone to talk to for a change.
James
P.S. If this letter reaches you, could you tell me what that letter or number is at the end of your address? I don't know if it's an M or an H or what. I tried to just copy what you write. Hopefully the post office can figure it out.
For some reason, I wasn't expecting him to write back. Don't know why.
You were absolutely right that seeing your letter in my mailbox surprised me. I was even more surprised when I read it. I had expected to see an entire page of "HAHAHA" or something similar. I never expect anyone to be nice to me so I just want to say thank you for that.
As far as everyone already knowing about everything, I hoped word hadn't gotten out but I suppose that was unrealistic. I knew writing to Alli would mean everyone would know, which was why I didn't write for so long. I was hoping, but not really expecting, that she would write me back. I'm glad that someone cared enough to write but I guess none of my friends (Kuga, Justin, Danielle, etc.) know my address.
I recognize that I need some form of therapy but am still unsure exactly what I want to do. Part of my release conditions was to join a group of other guys in the same situation as me so I've been going to that for a few months now. The problem with the group is we are not allowed to talk about a lot of things and I am very uncomfortable speaking to a group. Sometime in the next few weeks my lawyer is arranging for me to have a psych evaluation so we'll see how that goes.
Not having the Internet to fall back on has really exposed how empty my life is. After this is all over, I am going to have to make some big changes in my life. Being a hermit has led me to my present situation and also enhanced my perviness to unacceptable levels. When we first started talking, I just enjoyed having conversations with you. Later on, I became obsessed with seeing you naked. The same thing happened with Alli, and I'm sure I would have eventually done the same thing with Kuga.
Contrary to what you might think, I DO care about you as a person. I realize I didn't show it very often, but I did appreciate your friendship. I hope I don't end up going to prison, but if I do, I will depend on you (and some others) to keep me sane. I would like it if we could keep writing to each other, even though I don't have much to talk about, it is nice to have someone to talk to for a change.
James
P.S. If this letter reaches you, could you tell me what that letter or number is at the end of your address? I don't know if it's an M or an H or what. I tried to just copy what you write. Hopefully the post office can figure it out.
For some reason, I wasn't expecting him to write back. Don't know why.