May 23, 2010 23:02
I'm really, really, really tired of being the person who keeps this friendship afloat. I'm tired of making 100% of the effort. I'm tired of always being the one who calls, messages, or texts you. I'm tired of calling you every day and talking to you because you aren't busy, and then not calling you for a week and checking the caller ID only to realize that you never called. I'm tired of feeling like I'm the only person who cares. I'm tired of you being lazy and complacent. I'm tired of listening to all your problems and then you being magically busy or disappearing altogether when I have a problem. Really, I'm just tired of this, and I'm tired of you. I'm not going to make any effort to initiate conversation with you anymore, and if that means the end of our friendship because you can't open an MSN window or pick up a telephone to contact your so-called best friend, then fine. I guess it's done.
The reason why I'm not naming any names is because this literally applies to every single one of my friendship at the moment except for Ben and Christian. So, whatever. Dr. Lidstone said to start giving only what I receive, so I'm going to basically cut off all contact with all of my friends unless THEY call ME.
Oh well. I have a great boyfriend who I see all the time and a billion pets. What else do I need?
Edit: lol, he's so helpful and cute, I love him to bits.
love,
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ben,
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