bad day

[fuccwatchaheard]

well first off its a bad day cuz this day used to mean something to me..but now it jus doesnt..so idc anymore...this morning at lyk 4:30 oot and her husband left..i didnt see them though but i sed goodbye last night. uhm..well i woke up got in the shower..got dressed..did my hair..as i was finishing my hair i got a fone call..from my aunt..and i knew something was wrong..i told her my dad would call her back cuz he was in the bathroom..so he did and he was lyk " yea we kinda all exspected it and blahlbhalbha' so i knew it. my grandma had passed away. i wanted to hold back the tears and i jus couldnt..my dad told me and i jus started to cry..he asked if i wanted to go to school and i sed i would go..cuz i thought i would make it..but ..i walked to saras house still cryin and when i seen he she asked what was wrong and when the words came out of my mouth i jus started cryin more..i stopped b4 we walked to the bus stop..and didnt cry for a while..in choir first period i felt the tears come once or twice but i tried my hardest to hold them back..cuz i hate when ppl see me cry.i seen chris and yeah i was suppose to ask him sumthin but i jus wasnt in the mood and i told him y and he gave me a hug..thanks chris love yah..so anyways..we got out of choir to go to second period..and so i walked into jucketts room and i put down my chair and it fell so i got mad and i pushed the desk so i could get it up and then he was lyk whats wrong jenn and i jus kinda froze..and thought bout everything and jus started to cry again and i walked out and went to the bathroom and then amber came to comfort me and he sed he was sorry cuz he didnt kno anything happened..and janelle and amina were in the bathroom to and they were comforting me i guess..and they sed i should call sum1 to pick me up so i did and my dad came and got me..and yeah he took me home and he stay w/ me for lyk an hour but we both slept..and i dont really remember him leavin cuz i was asleep but i heard him say he was goin back to work..but idk im still kinda upset bout it all..i jus cant imagine..lyk..wow. i jus seen my grandma not last weekend but the weekend b4. and lyk she was on the respritory thingy and when she talked u culd barely hear her..and i jus cant think of how she died..lack of air or something..they sed she was havin problems yesterday and she saw the doctor and they sed she was okay..but then she went to sleep and i guess jason checked up on her and she was gone..=-/..idk. i just dont want to think bout it all but i cant get it off of my mind..my last grandparent..i seen her not even a month ago!! i can still remember everything lyk i was there yesterday..
well at lease now shes w/ poppy..and i kno that they are probably happy together now. i miss them both so much.

rip nan <3 always b in my heart..