jesus moses and the buhhda...
people suck... so inconsiderate of others feelings... they make me want to just shoot myself...
today was another hard day... my friend crissy left dublin, and i will probably never see her again... it sucks so much.. she is awesome, she would stay in my room with me and my roomie and now it will never happen again... why? everyone is leaving me.. i just want things to stay the same.. but they won't you can't replace people, and you can't replace crissy... her randomness would make me laugh... i don't know i am so confused right now about everything.. about my existance.. sometimes i feel like i am a nucence, and i feel as if i weren't here tomorrow people wouldn't notice till a month later.. and then they would just brush it off, like it were nothing... people wouldn't cry for me.. i don't want to cry anymore.. i just want to live.. but people keep making me feel like shit.. what the fuck? i can't take this bulshit anymore.. one day they are nice the next they don't want to be bothered... i need some stabilitation.. i want to go home and just sleep forever, see if anyone would bothering to try and save me... help me escape from this 'so called life' i am going crazy... i seriously am..... the only thing i want is to be happy... walk around with a real smile.. not the fake one i walk around with everyday...
today was another hard day... my friend crissy left dublin, and i will probably never see her again... it sucks so much.. she is awesome, she would stay in my room with me and my roomie and now it will never happen again... why? everyone is leaving me.. i just want things to stay the same.. but they won't you can't replace people, and you can't replace crissy... her randomness would make me laugh... i don't know i am so confused right now about everything.. about my existance.. sometimes i feel like i am a nucence, and i feel as if i weren't here tomorrow people wouldn't notice till a month later.. and then they would just brush it off, like it were nothing... people wouldn't cry for me.. i don't want to cry anymore.. i just want to live.. but people keep making me feel like shit.. what the fuck? i can't take this bulshit anymore.. one day they are nice the next they don't want to be bothered... i need some stabilitation.. i want to go home and just sleep forever, see if anyone would bothering to try and save me... help me escape from this 'so called life' i am going crazy... i seriously am..... the only thing i want is to be happy... walk around with a real smile.. not the fake one i walk around with everyday...