PORque?<--

[fu15cky15ou]

why am i so depended on having a man??? i want to be alone, but i always have someone that i am thinking about... i don't know why, but i always need attention from guys... whatever... i don't know.. and the worst thing about all this shit.. is my head keeps fucking with me.. i don't know what i want.. one day it's this kid, the next it's someone else... meh!!!!!! what the fuck?!?! i wish my head were more clear and easy to understand... i just what to me happy.. but i am the reason i am not happy.. why do i keep thinking that someone else will make me happy? wil they? i give so much trust and faith in them, but then they fucking hurt me.. why? i try to be nice.. am i not nice?

fuck me<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<
i am so sick of this shit...

your eyes scream "you don't diserve this"
i don't understand why, but i trust your eyes
i feel confused, frustrated, and used
but i still trust your eyes
i don't know why you tell me lies
but your eyes seem to tell the truth
i can't stand being lied to
but i'm still with you
if you were like your eyes this would have ended long ago
so i should trust your eyes
instead of living this lie
and i still trust your eyes...
[by melissa [me] ]