Back to Reality
Hey chicas, I was so excited to get messages from you girls out there. I thought wow no one is ever going to know I am even back or care for that matter. I just need to find a place to vent and I shouldve come back sooner. I came back from my NY trip, it was fun and I did okay in the eating department. I tried keeping it to salads at dinner, lil bits of good stuff here and there, and i walked a crap load so thats good.
Im happy to be back though and I want to get back on track with my eating. I have almost no food at home, which is a good thing perhaps, but sometimes that makes me want to stray and eat my husbands food. I feel so huge and honestly i just wanted to cry today when i zipped up my jeans. At least everything still fits, but i just dont feel comfortable in my skin. I feel like the flesh reminds me all day of how gross and fat I really am. But my only problem right now is that i feel helpless. I have done every diet, everything in the book to lose weight, that at this point I dont know where to turn. I figure for now my plan is to eat fruits and vegetables, although I had cheese on my salad at lunch today. Freaking A ... see I feel like I can't do it anymore. I am sitting here still at work, touching what feels like a double chin. I feel so puffy, gross, unattractive. I need a quick plan to lose weight, maybe a detox or something would help. Anyone have any ideas? I need to find like a regimen that is low calorie, but do-able. I cant go on zero cals or 200 cals a day as am I up all day and at work all day, which makes it hard not to have any food. I am thinking do my veg/fruit juice in the morning, lunch - salad? not sure??, snack-fruit (apple, pear, or carrots, cucumbers), dinner - maybe broccoli or veg w/a small sweet potato. I always say i should just eat normal through the day and skip dinner, but i have a hard time skipping dinner. Since my husband eats in front of me and I get home from work, wanting at least a snack or something to nibble on. If anyone has any ideas to make this work or a good meal plan that works with a busy schedule please let me know!!!!!! :)
Im happy to be back though and I want to get back on track with my eating. I have almost no food at home, which is a good thing perhaps, but sometimes that makes me want to stray and eat my husbands food. I feel so huge and honestly i just wanted to cry today when i zipped up my jeans. At least everything still fits, but i just dont feel comfortable in my skin. I feel like the flesh reminds me all day of how gross and fat I really am. But my only problem right now is that i feel helpless. I have done every diet, everything in the book to lose weight, that at this point I dont know where to turn. I figure for now my plan is to eat fruits and vegetables, although I had cheese on my salad at lunch today. Freaking A ... see I feel like I can't do it anymore. I am sitting here still at work, touching what feels like a double chin. I feel so puffy, gross, unattractive. I need a quick plan to lose weight, maybe a detox or something would help. Anyone have any ideas? I need to find like a regimen that is low calorie, but do-able. I cant go on zero cals or 200 cals a day as am I up all day and at work all day, which makes it hard not to have any food. I am thinking do my veg/fruit juice in the morning, lunch - salad? not sure??, snack-fruit (apple, pear, or carrots, cucumbers), dinner - maybe broccoli or veg w/a small sweet potato. I always say i should just eat normal through the day and skip dinner, but i have a hard time skipping dinner. Since my husband eats in front of me and I get home from work, wanting at least a snack or something to nibble on. If anyone has any ideas to make this work or a good meal plan that works with a busy schedule please let me know!!!!!! :)