Something that's been sitting on my chest for a while.

[artemisqueer]

I made a new account so I could talk about this, warnings for explicit surgery talk and sadness. It's not for the faint of heart but it's been about 4 years since I had top surgery that didn't go very well and today while trying to make myself feel better I sat down and wrote about it. I'd appreciate people sharing their own stories or just words

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Thank you so much for sharing, I think every experience needs to have a voice. I don't think your story will stop anyone from having surgery if that's what they desire and/or need. I have seen (online and off)/heard about surgery and most were very positive and still I do not desire trans* related surgeries or any surgeries! I recently had to go through a unilateral salpingo oophorectomy for a mass - Thank goodness everything was clean but if I can steer clear of surgery I do. I'm not going to lie and say I never thought about it/questioned it (I did for a LONG time) but I came to a place where it just isn't necessary (I'm non-op and non-HRT) - I don't pass and frankly I don't care. My experience is not going to shape anyone's decisions and I don't think you sharing your experience will stop others from having top surgery if they desire/need it if anything it will arm them with more information that can help them recognize infections and other complications regarding top surgery. I'm so sorry you had to go through what you went through but in the end you needed the surgery and you went for it and it doesn't matter if your chest isn't perfect I'm sure it's better than before and you feel more comfortable now in your skin and kudos to you for doing what you needed to do :) As I said in the beginning thank you for sharing every experience needs a voice.