fishsammich
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ftm
What am I?
Hi, I'm fish sammich, but you can call me fish.
I've read a lot ofyour threads and most of you are FTM transgenders, either going through the process, finished, or too scared to do it yet. But I didn't see anything about someone like me. So, if you bear with me, I'll tell you abit about myself and maybe together we can figure me out, cause I have no idea.
I'm 22 and I was born with a female body. While I was growing up, it wasn't the normal question "who am I" but rather" What am I?" that I found myself asking.
I was a prettynormal kid. I had crushes on boys and all that, but I was a tomboy that preferred to get dirty and climb trees rather than put on dresses and do my hair. While growing up, when we played "house", I'd always play the dad.
When I got a little older, nothing changed. All my friends were guys, I wore baggy shirts to school, cut my hair short once but I was made fun of so much that I grew it back out. I experimented with my preferences toward males and females, and found I had none. I'm more attracted to males, but I find myself fantasizing about females, even going so far as to imagine myself as male with them in an intimate setting.
Sometimes I'd crossdress as a guy fully, binding my breasts (which are no small matter) and going about town, having my close friends refer to me in a male name. I started to slowly realize that this wasn't just messing around, and that i was different; that I felt like a guy inside. Not entirely, because I still feel female to an extent. I get excited when I see cute things and I still am attracted to males, but I also feel male inside. I'm told that means I'm bi-gender. I associate myself with both genders (or one sometimes and the another
other times) and sometimes with neither. Is that correct? Is that what Iam?
I've thought about getting gender reassignment surgery when i was younger, but I was too scared, and I am content to remain physically female. When i got even older, i realized I'd missed the most important time to get the treatments anyway, but I'm content with that.
So forum, am I normal? Is there something wrong with me? Am I bi-gender or just bi-sexual?
Thanks for any helpful comments.
I've read a lot ofyour threads and most of you are FTM transgenders, either going through the process, finished, or too scared to do it yet. But I didn't see anything about someone like me. So, if you bear with me, I'll tell you abit about myself and maybe together we can figure me out, cause I have no idea.
I'm 22 and I was born with a female body. While I was growing up, it wasn't the normal question "who am I" but rather" What am I?" that I found myself asking.
I was a prettynormal kid. I had crushes on boys and all that, but I was a tomboy that preferred to get dirty and climb trees rather than put on dresses and do my hair. While growing up, when we played "house", I'd always play the dad.
When I got a little older, nothing changed. All my friends were guys, I wore baggy shirts to school, cut my hair short once but I was made fun of so much that I grew it back out. I experimented with my preferences toward males and females, and found I had none. I'm more attracted to males, but I find myself fantasizing about females, even going so far as to imagine myself as male with them in an intimate setting.
Sometimes I'd crossdress as a guy fully, binding my breasts (which are no small matter) and going about town, having my close friends refer to me in a male name. I started to slowly realize that this wasn't just messing around, and that i was different; that I felt like a guy inside. Not entirely, because I still feel female to an extent. I get excited when I see cute things and I still am attracted to males, but I also feel male inside. I'm told that means I'm bi-gender. I associate myself with both genders (or one sometimes and the another
other times) and sometimes with neither. Is that correct? Is that what Iam?
I've thought about getting gender reassignment surgery when i was younger, but I was too scared, and I am content to remain physically female. When i got even older, i realized I'd missed the most important time to get the treatments anyway, but I'm content with that.
So forum, am I normal? Is there something wrong with me? Am I bi-gender or just bi-sexual?
Thanks for any helpful comments.