Weird dreams
Well, I've been pretty WTF??!? about my own dreams lately.
I've always been sort of obsessed with sex, at least in my mind. Almost never had wet dreams, though, mostly just daydreaming. I'm attracted to men, and when I first started identifying as ftm, suddenly my interest in sex diminished. I found it rather natural, that my huge fascination with men had at least partly been because I was missing something in myself, and now I didn't have that need in the same way. Lately, however, my libido has taken a huge leap, and all of a sudden I have a lot of sexual dreams - but in my dreams I am a woman! I'm really weirded out. I'm pre-everything, so I guess it's not so weird that I see myself that way in dreams too. And I think of how my therapist once told me that when we dream of having sex with somebody, it's often a way of internalising aspects of the person we dream about. So, yeah, I want to internalise that masculinity. But it's still a very weird feeling when I wake up and can't decide whether I'm aroused or nauseated.
Anybody else having/had dreams that were weird that way?