Contentment and trying...
I have this thing where I get to the end of the day and look back on what I've done and often feel like I haven't accomplished anything. I am hesitant to give up the day. I want to stay up in hopes that I'll get one more thing in. I am always discontent.
One of my biggest challenges is being content. Contentment is kinda hard for an artist. We are ever-searching and never quite satisfied with the current state of things. There is always something else to make, to create. But we have had the answer staring us in the face the whole time. Rest. It can't always be go go go. What is given up in quantity can be made up for with quality. Creating is about more than just the end result, the finished product, it’s about the process of self-discovery through the creative journey.
So rest is good. Rest is essential.
And resting isn’t being lazy. I'm learning to relax between journeys of productivity. I'm learning to let myself recharge while continuing to live and work and love what I am doing. it doesn't have to be black and white. I still have a hard time seeing the grey areas in life. That's okay. I'm trying.
I'm trying.