Here Courtney.. an update, not a long one.. but an update
Wow I don’t even know where to begin... Such a turn around in the last few weeks…
Quick updates on the boring shit... School and work are going well, maintaining A’s in my classes... Lately I've been taking off days from work to go visit a boy in Webster, but that’s going to stop or at least slow down for a bit.
Friends are doing great. Ash has a boy that’s making her RATHER happy… She has this glow about her that is quite unexplainable. Janice is doing ok, I guess, but with all my weekends out of town, I haven’t really been keeping up. Erin is doing FANTASTIC... We finally cut the douche bags out of our lives. I can’t wait for mike and Chelsea to move in, it’s going to be good times. Danielle is out and that means, so is her mess... :)... I loved the girl to death as a person, but the dishes and the garbage, I just couldn’t handle it anymore... Irene will be moved out on Friday... it’s kind of sad to think about the end of a year that had to be my best one yet… Well, there were rough spots, but I realized a lot about my friends and even more about myself…
Now on to the juicy good stuff… Remember how in my last update I said i was nervous to see how things unfolded.. NOTHING in my mind would have lead me to believe I'd be where i am right now.. Apparently everyone else saw it comin, I on the other hand, did not.. But, I'm not complaining, actually its the exact opposite.. :-D.. I’ve been spending time with this boy on the weekends... good times, REAL good times... I have a blast with him... Whether it be sitting on a couch doing ABSOLUTELY nothing, driving to Ocala for bike shows, or laying in bed talking about anything and everything... It just is amazing. I can’t explain it. It doesn’t make sense. He doesn’t want a girlfriend, and I TOTALLY get that, and I don’t want a bf to be quite honest, all that leads to is a broken heart... so I click really well with this kid, and I love being me around him.. I feel like I don’t have to hide anything, I don’t have to be embarrassed about things I do/think/feel... it just feels good to be me again. I met his ex, the one he was with for a year... she’s awesome... the situation sucked, but she had to be the nicest girl I’ve ever met... I feel kind of bad though, because I feel like I invaded some space or something... I told her that friendship with ex's usually becomes easier after a while which felt SO hypocritical of me... but I hope she doesn’t think that. I don’t know... Doug is trying his hardest to fuck shit up, which I think is SO lame because I backed away so he could be happy... Why can’t he do the same?!?! I am not saying there is anything to fuck up, because the reality is, I don’t think there is, he says he likes me, I like him, but we don’t want relationships, so we will take what we can... but Doug just insists on making shit complicated... which sucks ass… I don’t know. I just want to be happy, whether that be with a boy from Webster or not, I don’t think anyone has ANY right to stop me, especially given the situation that was at hand. Although the shitty part is Doug is CONVINCED I’m only spending time with John and liking him to get back at him... Which, for the record, is SUCH horseshit. GRRR! Why can’t I just be happy? Which is funny, because I have been lately, and fuck you for trying to take that away from me!
Enough about that, I should be studying for these two finals that will own my soul.. So back to that I go..
Hugs and kisses, Jen
Quick updates on the boring shit... School and work are going well, maintaining A’s in my classes... Lately I've been taking off days from work to go visit a boy in Webster, but that’s going to stop or at least slow down for a bit.
Friends are doing great. Ash has a boy that’s making her RATHER happy… She has this glow about her that is quite unexplainable. Janice is doing ok, I guess, but with all my weekends out of town, I haven’t really been keeping up. Erin is doing FANTASTIC... We finally cut the douche bags out of our lives. I can’t wait for mike and Chelsea to move in, it’s going to be good times. Danielle is out and that means, so is her mess... :)... I loved the girl to death as a person, but the dishes and the garbage, I just couldn’t handle it anymore... Irene will be moved out on Friday... it’s kind of sad to think about the end of a year that had to be my best one yet… Well, there were rough spots, but I realized a lot about my friends and even more about myself…
Now on to the juicy good stuff… Remember how in my last update I said i was nervous to see how things unfolded.. NOTHING in my mind would have lead me to believe I'd be where i am right now.. Apparently everyone else saw it comin, I on the other hand, did not.. But, I'm not complaining, actually its the exact opposite.. :-D.. I’ve been spending time with this boy on the weekends... good times, REAL good times... I have a blast with him... Whether it be sitting on a couch doing ABSOLUTELY nothing, driving to Ocala for bike shows, or laying in bed talking about anything and everything... It just is amazing. I can’t explain it. It doesn’t make sense. He doesn’t want a girlfriend, and I TOTALLY get that, and I don’t want a bf to be quite honest, all that leads to is a broken heart... so I click really well with this kid, and I love being me around him.. I feel like I don’t have to hide anything, I don’t have to be embarrassed about things I do/think/feel... it just feels good to be me again. I met his ex, the one he was with for a year... she’s awesome... the situation sucked, but she had to be the nicest girl I’ve ever met... I feel kind of bad though, because I feel like I invaded some space or something... I told her that friendship with ex's usually becomes easier after a while which felt SO hypocritical of me... but I hope she doesn’t think that. I don’t know... Doug is trying his hardest to fuck shit up, which I think is SO lame because I backed away so he could be happy... Why can’t he do the same?!?! I am not saying there is anything to fuck up, because the reality is, I don’t think there is, he says he likes me, I like him, but we don’t want relationships, so we will take what we can... but Doug just insists on making shit complicated... which sucks ass… I don’t know. I just want to be happy, whether that be with a boy from Webster or not, I don’t think anyone has ANY right to stop me, especially given the situation that was at hand. Although the shitty part is Doug is CONVINCED I’m only spending time with John and liking him to get back at him... Which, for the record, is SUCH horseshit. GRRR! Why can’t I just be happy? Which is funny, because I have been lately, and fuck you for trying to take that away from me!
Enough about that, I should be studying for these two finals that will own my soul.. So back to that I go..
Hugs and kisses, Jen