Insomnia hasn't totally gone away...but it's better
I slept for a few hours and then just shot up in bed. Oh well. I watched an old eposide of Felicity that has started to put stuff into focus for me. It's from season one where Felicity and Noel start dating, but in a panic feel that they need to define their relationship. In the end, they see that they just need to let it happen.
Who's to say that isn't what I'm suppose to do? Dave knows about the kiss between Lynn and I...Lynn knows about the stuff with Dave and I. I'm just going to let these two relationships happen...yes, I know that eventually I will have to make a "choice," but for right now, I need a more solid ground to walk on to make a choice. They are both okay with sharing me for a little while. I'm not going to lie to either one and let them think that something isn't happening with the other one. I'm going to let what happens, happen. In the end I will be happy. I'm confused by it all now...but I'm happy. Stuff happens for a reason...I will always know that. I will always remember those words. Everything in my life that has happened has brought me to this point and I know that I wouldn't be the person I am today without those relationships, those emotions, those events. I'm kinda at peace with all of the stuff right now.
Who's to say that isn't what I'm suppose to do? Dave knows about the kiss between Lynn and I...Lynn knows about the stuff with Dave and I. I'm just going to let these two relationships happen...yes, I know that eventually I will have to make a "choice," but for right now, I need a more solid ground to walk on to make a choice. They are both okay with sharing me for a little while. I'm not going to lie to either one and let them think that something isn't happening with the other one. I'm going to let what happens, happen. In the end I will be happy. I'm confused by it all now...but I'm happy. Stuff happens for a reason...I will always know that. I will always remember those words. Everything in my life that has happened has brought me to this point and I know that I wouldn't be the person I am today without those relationships, those emotions, those events. I'm kinda at peace with all of the stuff right now.