Wow
For me to describe everything on my mind at this exact moment to you all would require pages upon pages of paper and probably some McDonalds. The summary is, I'm an idiot who dosn't have the courage to go out and get what he wants. I've known it for years that I need to have more self confidance and that I need to start practicing what I preach to others, I just don't do it. Well, I've been burnt but my lack of effort, I've been beaten and I vow, with every cell in my body, to NEVER let it happen again. From this day on, a new Jeff is born, a more self confidant Jeff. A Jeff who is not afraid to go out and get what he want's ans isn't afraid of the answer. There is a new day dawning, and I'm looking forward to tomorrow.
Anyway, it's good to be home, but I desperatly miss my freedom, I want to be on my own again. It was nice to see my friends and a few of my teachers to let them know how much I love college and that I'm doing fine. Spending time with my family is a nice thing, it's nice to know how much they really miss me. Lucy is doing fine, she even does this cute trick for me everytime i enter my room, trying to get me to feed her. Unfortunantly, I arrived home with 2 fish and only have one, Jefferson died one day into his stay here and no I DIDNT KILL HIM!!!! Scott was cool with it, he was just like flush him. Can't wait until Christmas, I hope I get some of what I ask for, if not, I have money to go out and get a DVD player for my room, I need one bad. Things have been pretty cool at home, since Office Depot is dragging their feet about hiring me, I might go work with my dad after Christmas until I go home. I dunno why, but lately I've been wathcing the Star Trek Voyager Marathon on Spike TV, I forgot how much I love that show. I want to buy the Seasons on DVd, but they're like 100 a piece, and I'm like ummm, NOOOO! Maybe I'll start off with Season 1 and work my way up each birthday and Christmas. I got a new book tonight at Borders, it's Mitch Albom's new book For One More Day. Its; about a guy who gets the chance every person dreams of, to get a second chance at life and change what you have done. Hmmmm, really speaks volumes for my life right now. Forget the bull shit about living life without regrets, it's unavoidable, you'll always feel regrets, now matter what you choose.
I'd kill for that chance.....
Merry Christmas to all
Anyway, it's good to be home, but I desperatly miss my freedom, I want to be on my own again. It was nice to see my friends and a few of my teachers to let them know how much I love college and that I'm doing fine. Spending time with my family is a nice thing, it's nice to know how much they really miss me. Lucy is doing fine, she even does this cute trick for me everytime i enter my room, trying to get me to feed her. Unfortunantly, I arrived home with 2 fish and only have one, Jefferson died one day into his stay here and no I DIDNT KILL HIM!!!! Scott was cool with it, he was just like flush him. Can't wait until Christmas, I hope I get some of what I ask for, if not, I have money to go out and get a DVD player for my room, I need one bad. Things have been pretty cool at home, since Office Depot is dragging their feet about hiring me, I might go work with my dad after Christmas until I go home. I dunno why, but lately I've been wathcing the Star Trek Voyager Marathon on Spike TV, I forgot how much I love that show. I want to buy the Seasons on DVd, but they're like 100 a piece, and I'm like ummm, NOOOO! Maybe I'll start off with Season 1 and work my way up each birthday and Christmas. I got a new book tonight at Borders, it's Mitch Albom's new book For One More Day. Its; about a guy who gets the chance every person dreams of, to get a second chance at life and change what you have done. Hmmmm, really speaks volumes for my life right now. Forget the bull shit about living life without regrets, it's unavoidable, you'll always feel regrets, now matter what you choose.
I'd kill for that chance.....
Merry Christmas to all