Sanada/Yanagi/Yukimura future-fic, gen, 670 words, prompt: 7 September 2005: Herr doktor. Thank an old episode of House for this. This is just a snippet; might write some more in this universe sometime, hopefully not all angsty!
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reasons to stay
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Seiichi isn't able to use his intuition all that well through emails and text messages, and although it is a little better over the phone it's still difficult to tell simply through that when Renji or Genichirou are upset or angry anymore. Renji is very talented at keeping his voice at an even level, never changing his tone to offer you a clue to how he feels behind his words. Seiichi is too used to catching the small tells in his face that reveal how he really feels. As for Genichirou, although he is very revealing through his words and expressions he has also always been a bit of a closed book at times. Now he has become adept at so many different styles of writing through his university courses that he can pen a perfectly informative email that tells Seiichi absolutely nothing at all.
It's just an idle suspicion, but Seiichi has always had good reason to trust in his suspicions. He suspects that this time not only has something big happened, not only has it pissed off both Renji and Genichirou, but that it is something directly related to him.
He isn't looking forward to going home.
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When Seiichi opens the door and squeezes his suitcase and tennis bag through there is no-one else around. It seems unusual, considering the time, but he shrugs it off. When he walks into the kitchen to get himself a glass of water he sees the paperwork sitting on the countertop.
His signature is at the bottom, and the clear print that orders DO NOT RESUSCITATE is at the top. Seiichi touches a finger to the corner of the paper. His manager has a copy, as does his personal physician, and his trainer. This is his copy; the one he keeps in the safe.
He has no idea what it's doing out of the safe, but considering it has been kept for years where both Renji and Genichirou could have found it means he should have seen this coming. He sighs. He knows they are both nearby, just waiting to pounce on this.
"I didn't mean to invade your privacy," Renji says as they walk into the kitchen together. "I was in the safe for my own reasons, but it fell onto the floor and Genichirou found it."
There is no explanation as to how Renji had neglected to notice it on the floor afterwards. No explanation for why Genichirou had taken the papers not addressed to him out of the envelope to look at. Seiichi knows it really doesn't matter anyway. This wasn't a secret, so much as it just wasn't something he wanted to share.
He realises if it had taken a hospital - an emergency - for them to have found this out, it would have been much worse. He does understand that. So he says nothing. No explanations from him, either.
The silence stretches. Renji just keeps looking at him, and Seiichi knows he has probably been trying to unravel the mystery since the moment Genichirou showed him the DNR order. He wonders if now, stood in front of them, Renji is able to see anything else that will unlock the answers. To Seiichi it seems obvious.
Genichirou wants to open his mouth and explode, Seiichi knows. But because he and Renji are holding the silence delicately Genichirou is reluctant to break it. Only a moment of saving grace, but Seiichi knows it can't last.
"I don't know how you can say you don't understand," Seiichi says eventually. Neither of them has said it, but it is written all over their faces. This is what he has missed. Reading faces.
"I don't understand how you could have done such a thing!" Genichirou retorts. His anger is like a burst of heat, flames surging at Seiichi with a force that tries to knock him clean off his feet. He stands firm against it.
"Why are you always so content to leave us behind?" Renji asks, and Seiichi's mouth falls open.
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