Seems depress post, but hey! I'm not depress!
I didn't know why my brain is soooo good in thinking rubbish when is in idle state. Why can't it be like this and yet productive, during the little meeting I had just now during the midnight.
Still anyway, I think I didn't did much during the little meeting just now, I was either way off or just there stoning or trying to annoyed Peiqi or Sophia, or maybe Jasper.
Still I shall type whatever rubbish my brain had came up with before letting it slip into the recesses of my mind, again.
It goes like this.
Forgetting one thing you will not wanna remember is easy. Forgetting something happy is possible. Forgetting something hurtful is tough, but still within the range of possible. But forgetting one that you once admire or crush or fallen for, is tough, real tough. If you ask me, how tough? I would say, is a real pain in the ass.
I mean everyone do have crushes or least fallen for someone they like. I being a little weird, I will tend to like someone unknowingly, and someone who happen older than me. Before I know it, I'm already drowning in the pool of love? Sorrow? I don't know.
Of-course, is easy to get out of this nonsense, if I'm know what I am doing. But of-course, I tend to end up going in circle before getting out of the 'pool'.
To me, I have never enter relationship before, all I did was study other people relationship, the form and break up of one relationship, as to make me a better loving person (I guess and hope) if I ever enter the game call relationship or love.
But knowing I don't need any love or a partner now, so I don't know why I kept falling in love and making myself miserable for nothing. Weird eh? I myself till this day still can't understand, why I had fall over and over again without knowing it. Am I blindfolded in the first place? Or attractiveness that has charmed me, making me blindfold? I don't know.
Nor I don't think I need any answer. As I've no intention of seeking one.
Bet you people is confused with what I have written above. Well, I'm confused too, not only confused by what I've typed, also confused why I'm in all these without knowing it.
Oh well, that's life, I guess? We do stuff not knowing that we are actually doing it anyway?
Next up, here's a little small portion dedicated to 'Laydio Team', the online radio station I once was.
If you can't see the bright side of life, polish the dull side. Lol.
Still anyway, I think I didn't did much during the little meeting just now, I was either way off or just there stoning or trying to annoyed Peiqi or Sophia, or maybe Jasper.
Still I shall type whatever rubbish my brain had came up with before letting it slip into the recesses of my mind, again.
It goes like this.
Forgetting one thing you will not wanna remember is easy. Forgetting something happy is possible. Forgetting something hurtful is tough, but still within the range of possible. But forgetting one that you once admire or crush or fallen for, is tough, real tough. If you ask me, how tough? I would say, is a real pain in the ass.
I mean everyone do have crushes or least fallen for someone they like. I being a little weird, I will tend to like someone unknowingly, and someone who happen older than me. Before I know it, I'm already drowning in the pool of love? Sorrow? I don't know.
Of-course, is easy to get out of this nonsense, if I'm know what I am doing. But of-course, I tend to end up going in circle before getting out of the 'pool'.
To me, I have never enter relationship before, all I did was study other people relationship, the form and break up of one relationship, as to make me a better loving person (I guess and hope) if I ever enter the game call relationship or love.
But knowing I don't need any love or a partner now, so I don't know why I kept falling in love and making myself miserable for nothing. Weird eh? I myself till this day still can't understand, why I had fall over and over again without knowing it. Am I blindfolded in the first place? Or attractiveness that has charmed me, making me blindfold? I don't know.
Nor I don't think I need any answer. As I've no intention of seeking one.
Bet you people is confused with what I have written above. Well, I'm confused too, not only confused by what I've typed, also confused why I'm in all these without knowing it.
Oh well, that's life, I guess? We do stuff not knowing that we are actually doing it anyway?
Next up, here's a little small portion dedicated to 'Laydio Team', the online radio station I once was.
- Jasper, started his own Robotics training company himself. Which makes me think of starting one music publishing/label records company for myself to produce my stuff (music), if I never get to make it to major/public label records.
- Sophia, words can't really describe how awesome she is. Good at cooking and baking. I still miss the chocolate cake she made during her birthday. Great web designer. So see, how awesome she is!
- Peiqi, another awesome lady friend I've known, I mean is a great pleasure to know her. Awesome in drawing and animation and other stuff I guess. She's pretty awesome to me, as far as I know.
If you can't see the bright side of life, polish the dull side. Lol.