- ... I'd never found the furry fandom?
- ... I'd never moved away from the UK to California?
- ... the company that I'd worked for first had actually put in my US permanent residency application in a more timely manner?
- ... I wasn't let go by that company in 2001?
- ... I hadn't been cheated on by someone I loved while we were at a convention?
- ... I had moved back to the UK when my US work visa ran out instead of moving to Canada?
- ... I'd actually managed to move back to the US again 1 year after moving up to Canada, like I had originally planned?
- ... I never got permanent residency here in Canada?
- ... I never got citizenship in Canada?
- ... I'd been allowed to move into another position at the company I work at, instead of being kept there because I was too good to let go?
- ... I'd got past the interview I had down in Seattle last December?
- ... I'd got past the phone interview I had last week?
Would I be happy then? Because I don't think that I'm happy - truely happy - now.