Why isn't love enough?
It's been a while since I've updated. I don't really feel like doing so but it's better then finishing chem homework I suppose. Let's see. Since I last updated I was diagnosed with Lupus, Vasculitis (PAN), and Rheumatoid Arthritis. Um, school has been ok. I took my first AP test last Friday (AP American History) I think I got a four, I hope a five... I went to the GSA Prom, I really like dancing so that worked out nicely but I couldn't get my mind off of a certain male specimen, how unfortunate... Speaking of: right now I'm in the most awkward, unfortunate, difficult, and impossible situation of my life. I have no idea what to do. I wish I could just change one thing. ONE. But I fucked myself over and now I have to live with that I suppose. I'm doing a quintet for the Andy Stint brunch and I've been planning on OYO/Philharmonia try-outs but I've haven't received any of the things that I sent for. Curious. I had a fun food fight, and a neat little picnic as well. That was rather enjoyable. I've lost one of my best friends, I think? It's complicated. I watched Closer for the second time last night. It's funny because the first time I did not enjoy it at all but the second time I completely understood where one of the characters was coming from and it made me happy and sad. I really enjoyed it though either way you look at it. I had a really intense dream last night. Everyone died. I watched it all. It was unique. I lived but not really because of my disease, but I still lived? In a weird way. I don't completely understand it. I HAVE TO LIMIT SPENDING. It's so out of control. But I do it because it's a little therapeutic (the things I buy are at least). Whatever. I have to go finish homework now so I can go to bed early, even though I'll still be exhausted in the morning. How unfortunate. Good night, bye-q.