I miss my sister
Couldn't believe I said that.
Most of my friends know that my relationship with her is not the smooth type. We argue every now and then, mostly because it's her fault (hehehe), objectively speaking. It came to a point when I had to distance myself from her. Though we live inside the same house, see each other every day, sleep beside each other, I consciously gave her the silent treatment for a month. Why a month? Because I was so stressed with school then. I had so much to think about first. She can wait.
When the semester got a little lighter in the end, I thought of making amends with her.. but I didn't know how. For sure, pride was getting in the way. And what if she didn't want to fix things? Mapapahiya lang ako. I had wanted to make the first move and talk to her, but the ambiguity of how she feels for me was holding me back. Yeah, pride. It's like this always, don't you think? Afraid of doing anything because you won't know for sure what the other feels.
Fortunately, we just started being sisters again. It was a little awkward at first, well at least for me. I missed our girly bonding sessions, talking about our you-know-who's in life. I missed how she would laugh at me whenever I weep over an episode of OTH. I missed calling her so we could watch a TV show together. I missed us talking secretively under our blankets even though it's a weeknight and she has to get up at 5:30 in the morning the next day. We got to bond again this Monday, just the two of us (thank God for ICA fair). I didn't realize I had a great time with her that day until Tuesday when I found myself alone in the house, with no one to talk to and no one to rant my emo-ness to. Yes, the sad reality of breaks. And it all began to sink in.
I missed you, shobe! And the same goes for you. :)
Most of my friends know that my relationship with her is not the smooth type. We argue every now and then, mostly because it's her fault (hehehe), objectively speaking. It came to a point when I had to distance myself from her. Though we live inside the same house, see each other every day, sleep beside each other, I consciously gave her the silent treatment for a month. Why a month? Because I was so stressed with school then. I had so much to think about first. She can wait.
When the semester got a little lighter in the end, I thought of making amends with her.. but I didn't know how. For sure, pride was getting in the way. And what if she didn't want to fix things? Mapapahiya lang ako. I had wanted to make the first move and talk to her, but the ambiguity of how she feels for me was holding me back. Yeah, pride. It's like this always, don't you think? Afraid of doing anything because you won't know for sure what the other feels.
Fortunately, we just started being sisters again. It was a little awkward at first, well at least for me. I missed our girly bonding sessions, talking about our you-know-who's in life. I missed how she would laugh at me whenever I weep over an episode of OTH. I missed calling her so we could watch a TV show together. I missed us talking secretively under our blankets even though it's a weeknight and she has to get up at 5:30 in the morning the next day. We got to bond again this Monday, just the two of us (thank God for ICA fair). I didn't realize I had a great time with her that day until Tuesday when I found myself alone in the house, with no one to talk to and no one to rant my emo-ness to. Yes, the sad reality of breaks. And it all began to sink in.
I missed you, shobe! And the same goes for you. :)