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Keep On Keepin On
There is sooooo much I am thinking right now. There are so many things happening. Have you ever felt like you woke up and all of a sudden you were an adult? Like it seems like a week ago you were like 12 years old and had no responsibilities or cares in the world? Yeah...for some reason lately, I have felt like an adult...and I don't like it so much. I like having freedom, but I don't like the crap you have to deal with. I don't like that my friend Caleb is going into the Marines, I don't like that the next time I see him, he's going to be totally different. I don't like that I didn't let him know how much he means to me until lately. I don't like that when I go back to school, I have to make new friends. I don't like that I am going to grow apart from my friends at Rochester College. I don't like that my mom dislikes me. I don't like that I can never do anything right. I don't like that I am irresponsible. I don't like that I have no motivation. I don't like that I am losing my passion to make music. I don't like that I can never be the wonderful little girly daughter that my mom wanted. I don't like that I am a huge disappointment. I don't like that no one really knows me. I don't like that most people don't want to even know me. I don't like that I have lost my passion to be so close to God. I don't like that I am so confused. I don't like that I don't think I will make it anywhere in life. I don't like that I believe everything that's said to me....true or not. I don't like that I feel so intensely. I don't like that most of our lives are spent working at a job that we hate. I don't like that the best years of your life go by so quickly. I don't like that a dogs lifespan is so short. I don't like that winter is so EFFING long, and summer is so short. I don't like that gas costs $2.50 a gallon. I don't like that when someone breaks up with you...you remember all the good things and not the bad things. I don't like that people are awake during the day instead of the night. I don't like that my dad puts up with all the shit he does. I don't like that the world is so big and some friends are so far away. I don't like that all the good food isn't good for you. I don't like that you can't get good abs by playing guitar. I don't like that people like Britney Spears are popular. I don't like that Betsy (my car) died. I don't like that you have to wait til after 9pm to talk on the phone. I don't like when people drive slow in the fast lane. I don't like being grown up...and not being as naive and innocent as I once was.
There is sooooo much I am thinking right now. There are so many things happening. Have you ever felt like you woke up and all of a sudden you were an adult? Like it seems like a week ago you were like 12 years old and had no responsibilities or cares in the world? Yeah...for some reason lately, I have felt like an adult...and I don't like it so much. I like having freedom, but I don't like the crap you have to deal with. I don't like that my friend Caleb is going into the Marines, I don't like that the next time I see him, he's going to be totally different. I don't like that I didn't let him know how much he means to me until lately. I don't like that when I go back to school, I have to make new friends. I don't like that I am going to grow apart from my friends at Rochester College. I don't like that my mom dislikes me. I don't like that I can never do anything right. I don't like that I am irresponsible. I don't like that I have no motivation. I don't like that I am losing my passion to make music. I don't like that I can never be the wonderful little girly daughter that my mom wanted. I don't like that I am a huge disappointment. I don't like that no one really knows me. I don't like that most people don't want to even know me. I don't like that I have lost my passion to be so close to God. I don't like that I am so confused. I don't like that I don't think I will make it anywhere in life. I don't like that I believe everything that's said to me....true or not. I don't like that I feel so intensely. I don't like that most of our lives are spent working at a job that we hate. I don't like that the best years of your life go by so quickly. I don't like that a dogs lifespan is so short. I don't like that winter is so EFFING long, and summer is so short. I don't like that gas costs $2.50 a gallon. I don't like that when someone breaks up with you...you remember all the good things and not the bad things. I don't like that people are awake during the day instead of the night. I don't like that my dad puts up with all the shit he does. I don't like that the world is so big and some friends are so far away. I don't like that all the good food isn't good for you. I don't like that you can't get good abs by playing guitar. I don't like that people like Britney Spears are popular. I don't like that Betsy (my car) died. I don't like that you have to wait til after 9pm to talk on the phone. I don't like when people drive slow in the fast lane. I don't like being grown up...and not being as naive and innocent as I once was.