A Lot Of Nice Things Turn Bad Out There
i don't know what to do. things aren't going very well with cory and it breaks me. we've been arguing about the smallest things and there is no communication. i want it to work, i really want it to work, but at this rate i don't know if that's possible. i love him so much and i wouldn't do anything to jeopardize our relationship but it seems like we're both contributing to that. he's been really irritable recently and i know it's cause of his brother and shit with his family, i understand that completely, but i don't like how he sometimes takes it out on me. i have my own flaws too... i have ADD when it comes to tv, if i'm watching tv and he tries to talk to me i don't even hear him. and he gets mad at me. i fell asleep and i only wanted to sleep for 20 minutes and he woke me up after 20 min but i was cranky and ended up sleeping for 2 hours. i felt so bad, and he got upset at me for it. the thing is... we want to believe that we trust each other, and to an extent we do but i don't think we trust each other as much as we think we do. thats why we're arguing. i love being around cory, he makes me feel like nothing i've ever felt before, but recently everytime i see him we end up arguing or yelling and on opposite ends of the sofa. it's gotten bad in the past few days, tonite we didn't even kiss goodbye. the last thing i want to think about is breaking up but i admit it has crossed my mind in the past week. i don't want to lose cory but then again maybe we need a break to sort things out. i want so much to cry but i can't, stupid anti-depressants. i am so fucking stressed and confused i just want it to fucking go away... i want it all to fucking g-o a-w-a-y...