Who The Hell Are You To Tell Me What I Am?
So um yeah the Green day concert is most definitely tomorrow!!! I'm excited!! Yeah I got kicked out of Geometry today cuz Schaidle is gay and a bitch and that class sucks balls anyway... I think things are finally getting back to normal. I know she's still hurting... I am too... but at least she's starting to talk to me like she used to... I used to have someone I could talk to about anything, about everything. I don't have that someone anymore... Now all I have are people I hang out with, people I get drunk or high with and it's never anything more than that... I miss having people I could just sit down and talk to, people that knew just by looking at me that something was wrong. And that knew what to do to make me better... Ugh, I need a cigarette like none other!! It seems that nowadays that's about the only thing that'll calm my nerves...
God, I miss my grandpa. It seems that every time I go over to their house, all I do is sit around and try not to cry. I always sit there and think about him... It makes me sick to think that I didn't really appreciate him while he was here. I didn't take advantage of the fact that I could see him whenever I wanted, and now that he's gone I feel that I should have spent more time with him. You know, all these months later I still feel like he's not really dead... Even though I visited his grave Sunday afternoon.
God, I miss my grandpa. It seems that every time I go over to their house, all I do is sit around and try not to cry. I always sit there and think about him... It makes me sick to think that I didn't really appreciate him while he was here. I didn't take advantage of the fact that I could see him whenever I wanted, and now that he's gone I feel that I should have spent more time with him. You know, all these months later I still feel like he's not really dead... Even though I visited his grave Sunday afternoon.