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I'm not sure what I want to say I just want to say something...
Almost the hypocritical statement of talking just to see if I'm heard. It's not as far as that, But I... don't know. I think my problem now is self-doubt. Loads of it.
I don't want pity or sympathy... Hell, at this point I don't need acknowledgment. I just... get too much time to think. Like always.
I have so much pent up inside of me and no actual way to say the thoughts that beg to come out. Most of it is something that's been said before, and saying it once again would have no effect on me as a person. But I guess it doesn't really matter. I'm just an angsty teenager, far to mature for my age, yet oh so immature at the same time. Somewhere along the line I feel like I cheated myself out of years of my life.
They hear my words but ignore me anyway. They say one thing, say it sincerely, yet are lying and mean another thing entirely.
Almost the hypocritical statement of talking just to see if I'm heard. It's not as far as that, But I... don't know. I think my problem now is self-doubt. Loads of it.
I don't want pity or sympathy... Hell, at this point I don't need acknowledgment. I just... get too much time to think. Like always.
I have so much pent up inside of me and no actual way to say the thoughts that beg to come out. Most of it is something that's been said before, and saying it once again would have no effect on me as a person. But I guess it doesn't really matter. I'm just an angsty teenager, far to mature for my age, yet oh so immature at the same time. Somewhere along the line I feel like I cheated myself out of years of my life.
They hear my words but ignore me anyway. They say one thing, say it sincerely, yet are lying and mean another thing entirely.