Oddities.
Joy. Elation. Compassion. Ecstasy.
Things I should feel yet don't. For reasons beyond my exlpaining or understanding, I have thought myself into an emptiness again. It, too, shall pass, and yet I can't believe I have done it to myself again. I swore to myself I was past this.
But then, I've sworn a lot of things to myself. I guess I should thank myself for not promising. Lord knows I'd never get over that.
Two. Two so far that I can remember. It still hurts.
Perhaps one day this will actually be behind me. Maybe I will stop overthinking every damn detail of every damn development in my life. Maybe the simple things in my life will stop seeming so complicated.
Maybe....
Things I should feel yet don't. For reasons beyond my exlpaining or understanding, I have thought myself into an emptiness again. It, too, shall pass, and yet I can't believe I have done it to myself again. I swore to myself I was past this.
But then, I've sworn a lot of things to myself. I guess I should thank myself for not promising. Lord knows I'd never get over that.
Two. Two so far that I can remember. It still hurts.
Perhaps one day this will actually be behind me. Maybe I will stop overthinking every damn detail of every damn development in my life. Maybe the simple things in my life will stop seeming so complicated.
Maybe....