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I'm finally getting down to updating, though I'm not sure if anyone is reading this space anymore.
School has been really busy since February, and getting into SC on the second try has made me even busier with initiation, outings and more outings. Though, I'm really not complaining about that, it made my boring school life a lot more vibrant. I thought that I was gonna sit through the two and a half years just like how I did in TP, just worse. However, with the busy schedule from school and the weekly Japanese lessons, it is difficult for me to maintain the closeness of the relationship that I have with some of my friends. I'm not complaining about the schedule, just perhaps regret from the fact that I'm not making enough effort and taking time out for others by not arranging my schedule properly.
Recently, there has been some problems with friends. Some of these, I have told people about it, but some I don't. Sometimes, I can feel that people are keeping stuff or problems from me. I do know that maybe some things are not that easy to say or comfortable to share, nor do you feel the need to tell me everything, but it makes me wonder sometimes, that if I'm really such an unreliable friend that it makes people act that way. I feel this way towards not just one, but four of them, whom are really close friends. I really do not want to probe or appear to be nosy, but sometimes, I feel so bothered and perplexed. Not because the fact that they are unwilling to share or tell me stuff, but I question myself if I'm really such a bad friend and that people could only maintain such a superficial relationship with me.
School has been really busy since February, and getting into SC on the second try has made me even busier with initiation, outings and more outings. Though, I'm really not complaining about that, it made my boring school life a lot more vibrant. I thought that I was gonna sit through the two and a half years just like how I did in TP, just worse. However, with the busy schedule from school and the weekly Japanese lessons, it is difficult for me to maintain the closeness of the relationship that I have with some of my friends. I'm not complaining about the schedule, just perhaps regret from the fact that I'm not making enough effort and taking time out for others by not arranging my schedule properly.
Recently, there has been some problems with friends. Some of these, I have told people about it, but some I don't. Sometimes, I can feel that people are keeping stuff or problems from me. I do know that maybe some things are not that easy to say or comfortable to share, nor do you feel the need to tell me everything, but it makes me wonder sometimes, that if I'm really such an unreliable friend that it makes people act that way. I feel this way towards not just one, but four of them, whom are really close friends. I really do not want to probe or appear to be nosy, but sometimes, I feel so bothered and perplexed. Not because the fact that they are unwilling to share or tell me stuff, but I question myself if I'm really such a bad friend and that people could only maintain such a superficial relationship with me.