Guilt.
I feel rather quite sick with myself. I feel so imature and guilty. My mum found out we were drinking the other day and her trust in me has, well decreased. And my dad was shoked, not angry, but gutted. I feel teribble by putting them in the stress of something happening to me in town. I used to think it was all fun. But i'v had a good think and talk about it, and i'v realised that it's not cool or fun cause you're putting yourself in danger cause you're not you're full self. And mostly I find I do it to make me less self concious or more confident. It done that the first few times but now it's worn off. The other day we didn't like feeling like that and felt like idiots. I couldn't sleep that night and i felt so guilty for drinking in a public park, where kids were. I'm not going to do it again at this age. One drink to much can just set me over and then i wouldn't care about anything. I know it's rubbish to look at it from this side but that's what can happen, even worse. I don't feel good right now & i feel like a persistant wee idiot. I got a new pair of jeans today from River Island for Easter & I worked today, tomorrow aswell, then Monday.
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